The turn of time

They say life is not a destination but a journey .. Yes, it is very true.  As we go forward in life we should enjoy the moments that passed by us for the moment will never come again. The place maybe the same but the moment is already gone. Gone with the wind.

Well, this sound a bit sad but this is a fact that we have to face and the end is the same for all of us in whatever time , age or place.  We never like to look at the end but the end is real  and it is always there waiting for you.  Like the generations before us that have gone to the ashes.  Just vanished.

So, we have to enjoy every moment and it does not matter long or short  but we have live well . We should do all the things we want to do in sickness or good health and enjoy the moments.

I was make wiser from Ajahn Brahm , the Australian Buddhist  monk and he says in his video talk " when you faced an inevitable problem , you should learn to taste the honey of the moment as danger or trouble stands in both ends and there is no way to go.  He says that the inevitable problem is like you have been chased by a fierce tiger and you decide to jump into a well. As you are holding on a to root , you saw a big cobra at the bottom of the well expecting you to fall down and it will kill you.  Now, you are facing a tiger at the top of the well and there is a cobra at the bottom of the well. Then worst in the well , there is hole and two rats, a white and a black rat was chewing on the root which you holding on. The white rat represents the day and black rate represents the night. Suddenly you saw there was a bee hive in front of you and there is sweet honey dripping out from the hive. Without know the outcome of your fate , you should choose to taste and lick the honey and enjoy it while you are still there. The end is not within your control and so you let it be and have the wisdom to enjoy the moments of the day.

In the end of the story, the tiger fell and broke its neck at the bottom of the well and it crashes the cobra on its fall.  At the end of the day, you will enjoy living again  happily ever after.

Yes, we will never know the end, it could be that the tiger eats you or you were killed by the cobra . What will happen is all fated and pre-destined.

Namaste.

On extended time

Hi  Fellas , Yes . I have been away for sometimes now and I am recovering from Anjopasties procedure to handle  the blockage in my heart arteries. Yes, it is a painless but I have a warning that I am on extended time. A new lease of life is granted to me and I don't know what is God's plan for me.  Anyway, I took it as a challenge to handle the need of changing the food I eat, my lifestyle and also my stress. All these requirement are very tough changes to my life to my life.  Last time is live to eat and not eat to live.  What a big change !

Apart from the diet, life style also need to change and have to be active instead of crouch in the sofa or my office chair. All the comfort in my life have to be change and moving around becomes a compulsory active to keep the heart strong.

During the one month since getting the heart attack, I have to learn to accept that it has happen and my life will have to change forever.  There is a saying " we eat to be what we are ". This wisdom have been known to me and I just ignore it . Now, I have to eat whatever is needed to keep my life's well-being ie oiless, saltless, not too much protein while the food must not have too much sugar or carbohydrates . Whole bunch of no , no , no ... I am make to walk on a fine line. The decision now is to live as normal or to live longer . This is a choice that I have to make.

Managing my medication is also another problem.  The mediation change my body functions and affect my bowels and it became to hard to dis- charge.  Too much water would also be harmful as it will work my kidney too much. A balance of everything and anything.

I have been told to eat as normal and live fearlessly .  There is saying " Fear screamed in the head while wisdom whisper in your heart ".. Yes, a little bit of pain or tightness  will raise the fear and make it much bigger.  Is there something wrong ? Why are the pains here and there ?

Our life becomes more complicated and living will become more painful then ever.  The decision of how we want to live becomes a reality .. live long and not living well or live well and not to be bothered by how we live.  This is a choice and it depends on whatever pending and uncompleted things in our life. If there are still unfulfilled items , the choice of living longer is necessary to complete all these unfulfilled task.

Well, I am living on extended time and doing whatever necessary is needed to prevent our problems going to our family to handle.  This is something I don't want to do.

So , it is better to live hard now to clear all the things in life and I hope God will give me this chance to clear these matters.

Namaste.

Tale of the Yanxi palace : Lessons learned

The TV series is now the talk of the town whereby the King have so many concubines and how the concubines and queen "fought" with each other out of jealousy and power.  In between the story, there was this maid-turn concubine " Yin lor" could survive the intrigues and the evil schemes to stay alive. 

Yin-lor was once the maid of the Queen and she was well like by the kind Queen and she was very appreciative of the Queen.  But , this Queen was hurt time and again by the various concubines including getting her baby killed in a fire by one the concubine.  She is very loving to the King but the playful King continued to enjoy the company of the various concubines and finally pushed the Queen to commit suicide due to the pressure of her son getting killed. 

Yin-lor saw the whole happening and resolved secretly to take revenge.  She was demoted from the Queen's maid to be a washer women cleaning empty bins and she worked hard and fairly.  Slowly, she gets the attention of the King and became her concubine.  From then on, she plot to kill all those concubines involved in the killing of the Queen.  Meantime , another concubine became the Queen after been noticed by the Queen Mother.  Gradually, Yin-Lor came to know that it was this new Queen who have plotted behind the scenes to killed off her rivals and became the Queen finally.

The morale of the story here is that " anybody can instigate another person to do the dirty job on their behalf " and even to the extend of killing. Yin-lor also saw through this scheme and confronted the new Queen directly.  As usual , the new Queen pretended not to admit it but told Yin-lor to show the proof.  Yin-lor was one of  the concubine who escape death in many ways.

Yin-lor have been a standout to be righteous and straight .  She did not mint her actions but will take revenge in the proper place and timing.  Her maid was well protected by her and she managed to take care of those evil action out to harm her.

Behind all the glamor of the palace , there is so much in-fighting , intrigues and malicious plots trying to backstab,  pull down or kill their adversaries .  It is so stressful and dangerous to be in the palace where some thing could prop up and hurt you.

The plot in this TV series was well executed and is really exciting and interesting as the plot unveiled at each steps. 


Recommended highly for viewing.

PMTP : Penang Master Transport plan as I see it ...

I could read in the news that there are a lot of noise from NGOs or Environmentalist calling the Penang State Government to change their plan or the mode of the future transportation in Penang.
They say lets keep nature and protect the surrounding environment.   I think it is too late now but someone would argue , it is better late than never.   But do you have a plan ?

It was my experience which I want to share with you about my traveling incident in Penang.

One day , I was asked by my wife to pick her up in Piza , the big convention hall in Penang Island  and which is quite close to Penang Airport. Maybe normal days , it will take ten minutes from the Airport to reach the Convention Centre.  

Happily , at 6pm , I left my office and it was smooth all the way through the bridge to Penang island.  After reaching the island , my focus was to use the coastal highway to Bayan Lepas direction . Yeah, it was all well planned.  However, I missed the turn to Piza and instead headed towards Bayan Lepas following the coastal road.  Then , I should follow the road and make a U-turn back to the direction of Piza.  Again , I must the U-turn and was heading towards Sunway Mutiara , the Mah Sing housing estate.  I saw the massive jam on the route from Bayan Lepas towards Queen's Bay , so I want to choose an easy way back to PIZA.   I choose the Batu Maung way and there was a massive jam out from Batu Maung into the main road facing the Snake Temple.

There was also a massive jam on the road to the airport . By now, I am already stuck for one hour and expected to wait another one hour for the jam to clear..  It was moving at ant pace and I was upset with the messy traffic. I wonder how these office staff or workers have be enduring these type of jams for years .  For those NGOs or environmentalist , they sit in their office and become arm chair critics and starting to make noise about the traffic plan . Are they real ? 

After passing the jam , it was smooth all the way to PIZA  and reaching there in 10 minutes from the airport.  Now , I know how the Penang Government is having a bad time with the traffic situation and if there is nothing done in the next 5 to 10 years, the jams will get worst and it will take 3 hours instead of one hour for my one way trip from Prai to Piza via the airport road.

I now appreciate the work and the plan.  For those , who have the choice of working somewhere else or in a jam free environment , please think of those having to get stuck and cursing all the way home from office or to office.

Please don't just talk and imagine . Get into the jam and feel the pain before you open your big mouth to talk.   My emotions is running high if I think of the incident.  How much time do we have, we have to live well and with such massive traffic jams , how can we do it.

Namaste.

My soul has a hat - a wonderful poem about TIME

MY SOUL HAS A HAT

I counted my years
& realized that I have
Less time to live by,
Than I have lived so far.

I feel like a child who won a pack of candies: at first he ate them with pleasure
But when he realized that there was little left, he began to taste them intensely.

I have no time for endless meetings
where the statutes, rules, procedures & internal regulations are discussed,
knowing that nothing will be done.

I no longer have the patience
To stand absurd people who,
despite their chronological age,
have not grown up.

My time is too short:
I want the essence,
my spirit is in a hurry.
I do not have much candy
In the package anymore.

I want to live next to humans,
very realistic people who know
How to laugh at their mistakes,
Who are not inflated by their own triumphs
& who take responsibility for their actions.
In this way, human dignity is defended
and we live in truth and honesty.

It is the essentials that make life useful.
I want to surround myself with people
who know how to touch the hearts of those whom hard strokes of life
have learned to grow with sweet touches of the soul.

Yes, I'm in a hurry.
I'm in a hurry to live with the intensity that only maturity can give.
I do not intend to waste any of the remaining desserts.

I am sure they will be exquisite,
much more than those eaten so far.
My goal is to reach the end satisfied
and at peace with my loved ones and my conscience.

We have two lives
And the second begins when you realize you only have one left.

The right exercise for a healthy life

Yeah , the title of this subject looks like some healthy alert or message but I want to share this experience with all of you.  My wife just came back from her Bhutan trip with a strain back which troubles her for more than a week.

My wife have been doing yoga and going to the gym with me and she exercise at a speed of 6 and with the highest slope level in a track mill to prepare for her Bhutan trip. According to her , the Country was beautiful and is eco-friendly where all the fishes and meat are imported and there was no killing allowed in this Bhutanese kingdom which practice Buddhism.  No nails were use in the building of the temples which were jointed by wooden hinges.

One of the requirement was a lot of walking and hiking and the hike up tiger hill took her almost 6 hours of tracking and steps.  She told me that the tour was hectic for her and she has to use a walking stick to help her and she did it at her own pace. So what was the trouble ?

She filled pain on her back after 3 days of arriving back to Penang and I have been help to message her back with lotions to reduce her pain but it keeps getting worse and she insisted to see a doctor, fearing that she has hurt herself or her spine.  So, I took her to see a doctor and got an X-ray to check on her back.

The result was an over strained muscle on her back due to the use of a walking stick or excessive hiking.  No medication was needed and an hour of physio at the hospital.  The instruction was a complete rest for her to let her back recover. No exercise as a cure .

It is important to note that excessive exercise is not good for the body and we have to take note of the condition of our body.  The condition varies from day to day and we have to pace ourselves to that condition.  We have to take ample rest to let our body recover and it is illogical to use exercise to cure our painful body .  It is to give time for the muscles to recover from the strain or injury.

The same thing happens to me when my shoulder was injured due to a rough massage by a Chinese meseur who believes that a rough massage could cure  harden muscles.  A complete rest was helpful for me to recover speedily.

Just remember , we listen to our body and follow its message to relax and cure .

Namaste.

"The right to live and the right to die"

This topic have recently became one of the hot topic of discussion.  The argument is there are no laws governing how we choose to live but why are the laws to govern how we die ?  The argument is that we are born without any choice but we want to choose the day we die and this is our right.  Who is correct ? It all depends on our perception of life.

This morning I called my friend to enquire about his uncle who is operating a lorry transport and he told me to see him in heaven . I was shocked and life is so fragile.  Life can come and go anytime.  The same thing happens to me years ago, when I called up a friend to locate another friend of mine who I have not seen for 10 years already and he told me the same thing and he asked me to locate him in hell.  We are in no control and yet , there are laws to govern us when to die or how to die. 

All the laws are established by people through generations and it is to bring order to civilization. We are make to be civilized by the existing laws.  Otherwise, people will be dying hanging on trees or in the middle of the road and will die due to all the reasons it can be.

Coming to thing of it , why are people imposing these laws or guidance to govern other people's lives ?  All of us should have the freedom to live or freedom to die isn't it ? Of course , the way we choose to die should not bring harm to other people surrounding us.  If the basic rule is there, then there should not be any problem , right ?

Bring the issue of canning of two lesbian in  the State of Trengganu  for discussion , how can we penalize two adults from their way of life or action. Not only a fine is imposed on them but they were canned in the public.  Is this a lesson to everyone or is this  barbaric nature of human beings imposing their standard on another individual ?  The Syariah Court judge says that we should look down at hese individuals after sentencing them. Is this the correct way of life ? 

Just like the incident in the Parliament , the PAS MPs were telling the Minister of Transport Loke that the airline stewardess uniform was too sexty and they were rebuked by the Minister telling them they should not look at them.  We have the freedom to see what we want and we cannot impose our standard on what other people want to see.  Why are we imposing our standard on others  unless we want to be judged. This is fair and proper.  We should refrain from imposing our standards on others because we are all sinners as well. 

Looking through what transpire in life, it is a lot of bad judgments and implied standards .  To hell with all these pretender saints ....live your way but do not tell other people to live your way.

Namaste.

End of July

It is another month. Time really in a jet speed to pass the days and nights.   Month after month . Year after year and the final day will come . 

I met an old friend at a gym on  last Saturday . His hairs were all white and he aged like a 80 years old guy despite only at his 60s'/  He was with his wife and his wife looks half his age.  He was so excited to see me and I was about to go in to the gym , he knock on the glass panel to alert me that he was there ..

On seeing him, I ask how is he and he says he was fine and also point to his wife coming off the trackmill .  His wife was still working and he has retired.  After that , he turn to me and ask me how was my condition , I told him " just getting old" and both of us laugh it off.  He told me , "when the time come, it will come ". I think he is talking about the end of life I presumed. 

He work out 6 days a week while I do yoga three times a week and two times on the trackmill at the gym.  On Friday, I go for my back massage.  I feeling all right but at times, a bit blue and worried.  Yeah , life is like this and Buddha says "when there is happiness , there will be sadness . Vice versa". I can understand this logic as one extreme leads to another extreme and going for the middle would be the best option ie no happiness or sadness.  A perfect balance situation.

When one end is black and the other end is white, the perfect color will be grey in the middle and the middle becomes the balancing point.  A balance life and a balance emotion.

This is a condition which needs a lot of training and we have to narrow the gaps gradually and make the openness smaller and smaller through training before we can control our emotions to the middle point.

It is not an easy talk but if we do not try, we will not get any nearer and the solution to our life will never be achieved  at all. 

End of July is period in time.  It has not meaning but a measure of how long we live and a measurement of events and space.  Every moment is a present moment and it is up to us to perceive it.  At every angle , the scenery is different and the colors are different.  It is fate for us who we have perceived it.

Namaste.

Rain

Wow, it is dark, grey and white outside
Looks like end of the day is near
Doom, Doom , Boom , Boom
Loud and deafening noise out there

It is raining and it is falling
Tit tit tat tat , the sound of falling rain
Make me feel down and blue
Why should it be grey or blue?

It all depends on your feelings
It is all within us to feel what we want
Be aware of the looming feel
Dun be confused or sad about it

It is never an ever lasting feel
It changes by the seconds
You can be happy and sad either times
If you are happy, you can also be sad


Buddha's middle path is the best
No happiness or sadness can dictate
Just like gray, middle of black or white
If no happiness , then no sadness

Wise man Lord , a great teacher indeed
To be wise is to be aware
Be aware is to avoid or to change
Using the wisdom deep inside us

Like the rain , it comes and goes
Raining in the Sun or shining when it rains
It does not matter the combination
As long as you know what is the best

Best of what , my loving Lord ?
Best of knowledge, understanding and wisdom
Just quest for such skill to be middle
Forever you are happy and gale. 

TGF - it is here again.

Thank God , it is Friday again.  So many Fridays have gone but it is a day I look forward to as tomorrow and Sunday will be a rest day.  But , it will pass very fast like a blink of an eye.

Is it so fast ? Why not ? If you come back on Monday and look back , it is already gone. Faster than a blink of an eye. So we have to be aware that nothing stops for us.

At lunch time, a few minutes away.  I was resting my eyes and at this age , I have been working on the computer for many years .  My eyes gets tired easily especially having to read my messages in my hand phone . The words are getting smaller and smaller.  My staff told me to increase the fonts but there is a maximum size , otherwise, it will make reading very difficult on the small screen.

God or our creator have make our eyes reliable and long lasting . Otherwise, it could have been damaged long time ago.  Just imagine of using the computer for 30 years old more.  What can I do about it ?  It cannot be avoided as technology have advance so fast and now everything is compact and light.  This is the way forward I think.  Technology and artificial Intelligence will rule the future.

Talking about technology advancement , I was shock to see a video from Boston University and how they are using AI to do the manual jobs.  I could see some robots walking like a human being and lifting heavy things on a conveyor belt.  It is a shape of a dog or a human being .  I am sure that the shape of a human in a robotic form will come out one day and as years gone by, it will make to look more and more like an human being .  They will be able to perform all the human task except having a conscience. The conscience of what is right and what is wrong  and the six senses of a human being. The ability to smell, taste , see, feel , hear and touch .can only be to a certain degree.  However, the scope and possibility will limitless.

When we look at the " Transformers' on TV , we just take it as a fantasy but it will be real one day , when robot takes over the world. You will have driverless cars, flying robots , superman in a robot form and a Hercules , who can hold up heavy equipment or fighting in a robotic war. I just cannot visualize what the future might hold.

Not only the world is getting smaller, the sky will be crowded with flying robots while the roads will be filled by robots delivering goods to the people. There should be no danger except accidents because the AI will make the robots to avoid each other in their path.   It is just the mess in the sky and on the roads. Our future human beings will be useless and lazy while waiting to be fed or moved around in their daily routine.  There will be less and less of a physical challenge.

Nowadays, even medical examination can be done on-line and will X-rays in 3D and in colors.  All medication will be arrange and delivered by the computer and what we need to do is to wait for a short while.

Yeah, this is Friday... time to think and to be aware of what the future might bring.  It is scary and challenging as well to predict what the future might hold for us.

Namaste.

Passing moments

Day by day , time passes by
How are we mortals stop the time
Impossible , impossible , Impossible
Master Time stop for no one .

Every day when we wake up
We thank GOD for the new day
Hoping it to pass peacefully
Healthy , wealthy all the days

But Age have its say
Whether we live a day or not
We have to be thankful
For the additional time on this earth

We are not aware that Age rules
How our body react to the day
Our eyes  are blur , our legs are weak
Despite we pray and hope .

A day start and a  day can end
Through Birth, Age , Sickness and death
No One , Oh ! No one can escape
The fate of our passing life

I don't want ! I don't want
Our heart and soul will cry
But Master Time rules it all
Until the day we rest and die.

Yes, we have to be aware
Make us live joyfully and well
With each passing tickling seconds
We live long or short and finally die .

Goodbye , my love and friends
We will depart on our own journey
Living the passing happy moments
Until the end of our memory and time.

Can a spiritual man be rich ?

It is a contradictory thought .  Can a spiritual person makes money through his or her practice and be rich ?  A spiritual person  cannot make money from his or her practice as it will be against his or her principles.  So , how can the spiritual person spread his or her teachings to as many people as possible since he or she don't have the money to do so.  He or she will have to struggle with their own finance and will not be focus in their spirituality.

Today, I heard from a fung shui guru saying that this thinking is wrong.  Why is money been called a currency.?  Currency means power or energy .  It provides the means to an end and without the mean , the end is limited or not attainable.  Well , this thinking is also quite true. 

Most spiritual beings need donations or charity to survive and focus on helping others.  If without this donations or charity, they will need to work and find money to survive and will not have time for their practice or to spread their practice  unless he or she is lucky enough to supported by a donor or a charitable organization.

In the ancient era , this spiritual being have to walk and how far can they reach ? So it is within a small area or country but with wealth, he can travel all over the globe to extend his or her teachings and reach millions of people in their journeys. This is logical thinking and practical way of life.

So, for a religion to reach far and wide, it will take much effort and time for the religion or a spiritual teaching to spread . Maybe through a thousand years before it can reach the millions of believers. Like the movie , " The monkey goes West ".  This epic shows a monk and with his three followers travelled from China to India to gain the knowledge of Buddhism .  We can see how hard was the journey and how it takes. 

If this episode happens in this modern times, it will be a days trip to reach their destination and come back to spread the teaching .  The speed of communication and wireless internet can spread the words in seconds.  All this hardship and troubles of "the monk who travels to the West" will be gone. 

Just imagine the opening of Tibet to the world .  It is a place of  the purist Buddhism and now it is open to the World.  Many of the famous Lamas are out to the World from Tibet to spread the worlds of the Buddha.

Amitabha.

Benefits of meditation - experience of the Thai " Wild Boar " football team

Why are the boys so calm despite stalled in a cave for many days during a massive flood ?  The answer was the art of meditation.  Their coach was a former Buddhist monk and he taught them the art of Meditation.  There are 5 benefits of meditation :

1) It provides calming of the mind through slow breathing exercise and bring them to the present.
2) It trains them to have patience while waiting for the rescue team to reach them.
3) It teaches them to have the right and positive thoughts which invites the rescue team to find them and rescue them.
4) It provides the harmony among the boys trapped in the cave as they start to think of positive things about the team and binds them together in thought and spirit.
5) Meditation reduces the need for food but yet give them energy to survive.

It has been proven over thousand years after Buddha's teaching the art of meditation . It is mind over our physical self . This is technique which prolong life in a healthy way.

Amitabha.

Life is a joke ?

Why are we taking life so serious ? It is only a dream or a movie .  It passes on with time.  Yes, be serious in our work or attitude is good but it may hurt other people.  If we can do our work and yet , avoid the hurt to others , then it should be the way , right ?

Making our self prominent and looks good at the expense of others have difference degree of perceptions and judgment . Some people will drive themselves straight to the wall and die standing rather than still drive but avoid the wall.  Even they don't care too much for themselves , least to care about others .  This is so disgusting to be around this people who only care about themselves or be selfish.

This attitude maybe their only way to protect themselves and they are more  important than anything else. This protectionist attitude could be as a result of bad experience or the influence during childhood.  Something could have happen to them and this harden their survival attitude. Yes, this people needs help and most of all divine help. It will be difficult to change them or loosen them u p.

Recently, I have a discussion with my colleague of people having this difficult characters.  The no nonsense guy or gal who can die hitting a wall because of their straight forward principles,  We agreed that this people is difficult to change as there is a Chinese saying "  the Empire is easily changed but for the character of a person would not move at all ".  This teaching or belief is through thousands of years in China and it is very true until today. 

It is very changing talking to these people who  will tell you that they have to protect their jobs or their professionalism and will not bend for others.  But, they can accept others from bending for them. This is the survival technique of this so called die-hards.

Talking them out of their opinion will be disastrous and self hurting because they will bite you back and making you feel low and hurtful.  They make us look like a thief when what you wanted is a peaceful survival for all.

Yes, stop them and tell them that they can write whatever they want and let the situation control itself.  Just leave them.


Namaste.

Boredom ?

Our mind is really amazing .. it controls our emotions and feelings.  At times, it is cloaked with worries and problems but at times, it hides everything and leave the mind blank and in boredom.

Feeling bored with our jobs or life is quite normal as we evolved around our environment and our self.  The repeated routine and schedules make us bored.  Now we do this and what is coming next is almost certain and predictable.  We are running in circles as outside these circles , there will be risk and insecurity. We are safe creatures which tries to avoid fear.

From the morning, we wake up, we go to the toilet , brush our teeth , take a bath , use the same soap and cleaning from up to bottom , left to right, etc is all in a fixed routine.  We are unaware of it because our mind is not focus or is thinking of many other things. If we quiet down  and go through the routine , you think that there is an SOP for everything we do.  It is as expected and boring.

In our daily life, everything is running in circles and n a routine until the last breath in our body.  You can just recap what you have just done and whether it is as familiar as before. Things and process just repeat itself.

So , some psychologist will tell us to vary our movement or the way we do things on a daily basis.  If we were to wear our pants first and then our shirts, it would be better to alternate it or when we brush our tooth from left to right , we should start the right to the left or center to the left.  With this act, our life will be more variety and will become more interesting.  It breaks the routine and boredom and makes our life more interesting. 

So, in the sexual text of Kamasura , it describe about the 36 ways of sexual intercourse which provide variety to the way we conduct our sexual activities and this is to keep the fire burning in us and also to let us enjoy the immense pressure in carrying out these different ways of doing the passionate thing.

Our mind will feel the change and it will be more active rather passively exercising the routines in circles.  Our circles or routines are our comfort zones and we fell comfortable living under these circumstances.

In our life, if we persistently do a thing or a process, we will be improving and finally be skillful in doing these tasks. This will make our mind bored as the action will be carry out naturally and in a certain way.  Our mind slowly will become passive and inactive and then boredom will come.  By doing differently , we are triggering the mind and keep it alert and active .  Moving from one direction one day and another direction on another day, it will be challenge for the brain to remain alive and focus.  The feeling and passion of doing it is different.

So, be mindful of this point and keep the mind active and well.

Namaste.

What can i do ?

There are times in our life that we cannot provide a solution to a problem.  It is not within our control or authority to save a situation.  We just have to accept and execute it.  What else can we do ?

It is so funny that we cannot change course or provide an alternate . It may also cause us more problem by denying the instruction from above.  The boss have the say and if we reject it , we also have to face the consequences.  It is better to minimize the damage around us. 

Nevertheless, it is painful and difficult to execute the instruction which could affect the livelihood of a staff.  It maybe his own doings but as a boss we have to take care of their welfare as well.  We cannot just do nothing and pretend as if nothing happens.  People's life will change and we will know whether it is for the better or not.

As Dalai Lama have said ' if we cannot help others, we should refrain from causing harm to them ". In this case, we are doing harm to people if we make decisions which affects them.  It is impossible to maintain the outcome not to hurtful.   It is a loss of livelihood and it is going to cause suffering to that person even if he has done something wrong.

When there is a landslide, it is better to taken care of your safety first , otherwise, by moving or taking action to save others , both of you could be hurt at the same time.  The outcome is not certain and the decision should be make as fast as possible because the landslide will be falling on top of us.

In this case, it is wise to get both hurt if the situation is not manageable or predictable.  One dead or two dead , is it a wise move ?  It is a senseless death if we make the wrong decision.  In such type of problem, it is better to save yourself and live the day.  At least , we can do some good in the future, if we service this ordeal. 

Coming to such situation, there is nothing right or wrong and it will depend on the interpretation of the situation.  Since , it is subjective to the situation , outsiders will not see the facts of the case and should not make any unnecessary conclusion which is not fair to the people involved in the situation.

Life have to go on despite some damages and perhaps , this happening could be a blessing to the person who is facing the problem. What come and go in our life must be dependent on the course of our life and our predestinated journey through life.

Namaste. 

O! my old friend.

It was indeed a surprise , an old friend came in to greet me after he visited my boss. 

My first response to him " how is your back ? He looks surprised but shake his head " no good" but I am able to hike . He looks much fatter and heavier than before and I wish him good luck and health."

He continued to tell me that all his friends he has visited  is already old.  But it is a fact.  If he is already old at 66 , then all his friends should be old unless he prefers younger friends.

I have always says that " age and time waits for no one ". It is a fact but we keep forgetting it and it only takes people to tell us or when we are awaken to this fact after seeing the reality of life.

I have been working for 43 years now in the same company and I am still asking " where have all my years gone /"  It went quietly and silently and in no time , the curtains will fall on me.

A month is like a blink of an eye . Is it that fast ?  Yes, it is like an arrow , fast and swift.

My staff and assistants came and work with me as pretty graduates or school girls but they are now mothers of a few children and some of them is also on the verge of retirement.  If we look back , time have flew by us.  Looking forward , you may not see the speed but looking backwards , you could see the years have gone by you.

The other day , I saw a video telling us to be available for our children instead of building cash returns , it advise us to spend time and build on our relationships.  It is not about money or who we are going to be but to have a loving and compassionate living with all those besides us and have strong personal bondage with them.

Leave beautiful memories behind and let the people in encounter with you in your journey to have beautiful thoughts about the time they have with you.

The basic rule of life never change " birth , age , sickness and death ". The faster we realize and understand it , it will be better for you and the others besides you. 

Namaste.

Like a virgin

This is a title of a song and it means purity and clarity ..  The word vargina depicts the private part of a lady and  if it is intact , the person is call a virgin.  It can also apply to a male and it means the male have not involved in any intercourse before.  

In the ancient China,  these male or female virgins are very much sort after for certain to maintain good health or purity.  In Tibet or Nepal , only a virgin lady can be addressed as a " goddess".  It simply means the utmost purity. 

As I have written before, it is healthy for older man or women to engage in sex with these virgins.  The ancient belief is that these give the older people , the young chi which could help to boost the health of the older people.  But , whether this belief is true or false , there is no scientific proof for this achievements.  Generally, older people feel younger when they are with the young people and this maybe a perception but it is a real feeling. The young chi around them help to boost the failing bodies of the older people.

Why I want to discuss the issue here ?  At my current age, I could feel that some parts of my body is starting to deteriorate or become weaker. This is the sign of old age and I feel that working with young people is so much interesting so that we can share of experience and also enjoy their innocent jobs or thinking.  Their immature or silly thinking will make us more lively while sharing our thoughts and experience. Of course , this is not for the sex but the thinking of the youth in them make us alive again.

The expression and appreciation by the youth after learning from us can give us a boost or like a " horse kick" impact and make us more aggressive or persuasive on them . I enjoyment of firing them up and to take life reality head on or by the horns and live out their life. This is a marvelous feeling from such experience.

It is like a duet.  The young people have the power , innocent  and the energy and the older people have the knowledge , experience and skill . This two odd part compliment each other well and balance up the lives of both parties. It makes a perfect world.

Namaste.

In the moment ....

 Our mind wonders and our thinking keep shifting.  This is the conditions of an untrained mind . We must be occupied always . Idleness is not acceptable .  To move is to be valuable or meaningful . This is the natural perception of a human being.

If we are not moving physically, we have to move mentally .  The time to sleep is regulated and if we sleep outside the scheduled time, we are being classified as lazy .  This is the perception.

We are all regulated . By what others thinking of us , by the teaching in the books and on the walls, or through our peers , TV or multi-medias.  We cannot fall out of the expected routines and if not, we are out casted.

Should our life be so restricted ?  This the norm of Society or our Establishment.  All of us should be doing the same thing to live a useful life, or to have our earnings in life or for survival of the fittest. Whole lots of reason to perform to our best. 

This is the biggest joke of our life as we are pulled by the nose ?  Is this is the direction where we want to go or is force to go ?  It makes us feel good  isn't it ?  This is behaving normally and not an out cast.

Who define this life style ?  if we think carefully , it is just people.  People created it .  People tell us how to live , eat and die. What is the life process ?  It is so well define is that there is no rooms to be different . This is the only way to come and go.

Books are written by people , tales are told by people and perception is also created by people . So, it is only people ,people and people who dictates our life. 

People like to follow . Just like in the fashion world . What is the latest ? who created it ?  no others, but just people.  They are the leaders in life , leading us through it their way.  Why are we so obedient ?  It is because we are not in the moment and our mind is shifting back and forth  and the only way is to follow and behave normally. 

We are creatures of TREND.

Namaste.

A hard day's night

This is a title to a song sang by the Beatles. One of lyric quote “ it’s been a hard days night and I have been working like a dog “. How true this statement can be ? But , how difficult it can be ? It only needs deep thoughts and time. Everything can be resolved but the outcome is uncertain that is all. Good , bad or ugly. There will be an end result.

A problem cannot be resolved is not a problem. It is already a certainty and a dead fact. So, what can we do about it. We can only accept it and manage around it. So, how can that be a problem. I have always maintain that there can only be quitters and no failures. If we continue to focus on a problem, there will be a solution and the outcome will be what we expect.

So, there is a very popular saying “ let sleeping dogs lie”. Another more dramatic wisdom is “ why flock a dead horse ? “. The horse is already dead and if we continue to whip it , it is of no use. Why waste your resources and energy ?

We have to analyst whether it is a problem or a dead fact. This is very important to understand the status of the problem. Often, it is very vague. On the surface, it is a problem and it needs efforts or focus to handle it but in actual fact, it is already a dead fact if we do not understand or know the underlying situation. We have to get all the facts above or underlying in order not to waste our effort.

One example of a dead fact is that it is raining now and you cannot change that fact or stop the rain but to find a solution not to get wet or stay in-door or postpone the event in an open field. If your car got into accident, you know that you have to report to the police and you will need to pay a penalty or a fine and if worst, you have to pay for the repair.

The difference between a dead fact and a problem is, you car’s wheel is loose when you are traveling in it. Do you want to stop , slowdown or drive to seek help from a mechanic before you get into an accident. So, you can still control the outcome and do something to avoid it.

If it is clear in our mind, we will reduce a lot of problems and will live a more happier life and not to waste our precious time on the matter which the outcome is fixed. It is better to be more analytical and clear in our understanding.


Namaste.

Fate have its mysterious ways - A story

Ultra-marathon runner Micah True found dead in New Mexico

Sat Mar 31, 2012 10:02PM EDT

By LAURA ZUCKERMAN

(Reuters) - Ultra-marathon runner Micah True, missing for four days in the rugged wilderness of New Mexico, was found dead on Saturday, police said.

True, 58, was found in the mountainous Gila National Forest in southwest New Mexico, near the Arizona border in the early evening, said Tom Bemis, incident commander with the New Mexico State Police.

Nicknamed "Caballo Blanco," or White Horse, True became a celebrity after he was featured in the best-selling book "Born to Run" by Christopher McDougall.

True left the Wilderness Lodge and Hot Springs, four miles from the Gila Cliff Dwellings National Monument, on Tuesday, and did not return. The lodge owner notified authorities on Wednesday.

Police then launched a massive search for the missing man, with 15 search teams totaling 60 people combing through 200,000 acres of steep canyons and shallow rivers in the high desert.

His body was found with no obvious signs of injury, police said. A medical examiner was en route, but because of the rugged terrain his body was not likely to be retrieved until Sunday.

True had left for a 12-mile run carrying a water bottle and wearing shorts and a t-shirt. He left his dog at the lodge.

In January, True wrote on his Facebook page: "If I were to be remembered for anything at all, I would want that to be that I am/was authentic. No Mas. Run Free!"

True was the race director for the Copper Canyon Ultra Marathon, a roughly 50-mile race that drew a dedicated group of runners to Northern Mexico.

The douyou island episode

Someone sent me a link to watch the documentary report on the douyou island. What is douyou island and what happen to the Douyou island is a few rocky islands on the yellow seas separating China and Japan and it is only about the area of 7 sq kilo meter. It is belong to China and administered by Japan and through this documentary, we can see the brutality of the Japanese towards China through the several aggression by Japan into china. It is the three "alls" policy by Japan. To take all land , to make use of all of China's huge population to benefit all of Japan.

China was at one time called " the sick man of South East Asia" and through the Ming and Ching dynasty, there was so many aggression into china , Manchuria and Korea which was belong to China once a upon a time. Through the aggression , the world wars and the various war treaty , the douyou island was taken over by japan and after the second world war , it was taken over by USA and after that , returned to Japan for administration but the island belongs to China, Now, this case is been raised by China who is bring it up to the international platform to seek justice.

The evil of war , aggression and greek by one nation have killed millions of Chinese and in turn, during the second world war , Japan was flatten by two atomic bomb. It took two bombs to make Japan surrender and bring back peace to the world,

There is such thing as  the law of karma.. You reaped what you sow and this is applicable to a race. The world is evolving and the fortune of the nations will also evolved.

Namaste.

What is GOD ?

Today,  Philippine President Durte criticize GOD as stupid and son of b.....h in a big catholic church which prompted wide spread criticism of him for his remark.  Someone pray for his sins and someone agreed with him on his perception of GOD.  He blames GOD for creating Adam and Eve and let them fall to their temptations.  Yeah , another straight shooting son of a gun.

Coming to think about it.  What is the image of GOD except that it has been imagined by writers of the bible or the church.  Have you seen GOD ?  Some people will answer, what you did not see , does mean that it did not exit. Just like the wind , you see not but you can feel it .  Yes, this remark is true. There are many things we did not see but it is there and we can feel it.

But does the feeling resembles GOD ?  Who created the human race ?  Did GOD create us in his image ?  In different religions , there are different version of GOD .  There is a Muslim GOD , A Chinese GOD,  a jewish GOD , etc . So many version and image of GOD.  So , do GOD exit ? 

The answer to that question is no there . It depends on the believers or for those who came in  touch with GOD or taught to believe in him .  GOD is not not one GOD , It maybe nothingness or in various forms.

Through the million of years, great teachers appeared at different times and different places and preach the existence of GOD and their followers refine their teachings or add , revised or modify their teachings to be more meaningful to the modern day people.  They imposed their thoughts and belief into the mind of the present people through their writings , teachings and lectures.

Yes, we are make to fear GOD.  This is belief is very good for a society or an establishment and provides some kind of rules , principles and guideline to the way we behave or live.  It is better than the time in Stone Age where we go around naked , dirty and without any guidelines in our way of life. We are animals then.

But come to think about it, are we happier at that time or now ?  Now life is so structured, established , routine and have a trend to follow. There are not so much freedom of expression or living in the way we like.  We live to the expectation of our society or establishment  and living out of it , means that we are not acceptable or a failure. Is it true that we need to live to the expectation of another person.  Why do other people have to judge us ?  We are we , our own self. An individual .

So let us  respect what other people think  or do .  Why do we need to change ourselves to live like other people do.  Do we need their acceptance ?  Just like President Durte of the Philippines , he can speak whatever he likes , why should we criticize him ?  Is he criticizing the believers ? If he do, what is wrong with that ? His thinking.

Just like what Dalai Lama says " if we cannot help others, do not harm them ".. you have all the rights in the world to do what you want but never create any harm to others in the way you act.

Namaste.

My twilight years

There are several phases in our life from the day we are born and until our dying days. 

Our childhood days , our schooling days, our courting days, our working life, our married life and finally, our twilight years. The curtains must fall one of the days and there is no such things as eternal life. If there is , it will be very boring.

Time flows like the river from its outlet into the big ocean and that is where it will lead.  Our dying days.

Yeah, it is very good to ride out into the sunset during the twilight years  and prepare ourselves spiritually to meet our Maker.   Yeah , that is the end of our life by then.

One of my colleague told me that she would want to buy a piece of land to make it into a bed and breakfast or B&B thing and live at her luxurious pace planting  flowers, trees and vegetables to pass her twilight years with no worries.   Just live the life as it comes and with minimum stress. Do yoga , meditation and some activities to pass the day.

For me, I would do the same , go away from the hustle and bustle city life and move into a hill top among the trees while facing the sea view and live the life as it comes. Just now worries and live a life freely and with no constrains.

I was told of a story about a high ranking officer who met a monk and was told that he have been a high ranking officer for his past three lives , very busy doing his duty and have the less of life for himself.  He finally realized that he was busy for nothing in all his lives.  Why is he so busy and finally, life pass before his own eyes.  It was very wise for him to see this point and he felt that he has been wasting his time.

Yeah, it takes a person to step back from his or her busy schedule , take a break before they can realize this point of nothingness from the start.  He or She could have seen it herself without the monk but often than not, it will be someone who will wake them up to see the nothingness in life.

We come from nothing , we hold nothing in our life and we are gone into nothing. This is the basic concept of "nothingness".  This maybe a very passive perception of thing but it is also real in life.  How many 10 years do we have ?  Some people do not have the time to realize it and ended wasting their time and find themselves in nothingness.

Namaste.

Yesterday , what an unlucky day ?

Yesterday, everything went wrong for me ..  It must be one of those blue days where everything was topsy turvy..It started off with me having a constipation at the gym early in the morning.   I was struggling to get the stool out from my ass but it got stuck and it make me very upset and uneasy.

I struggle through my morning exercise and landed my self in the toilet of the gym struggling unsuccessfully...  I was almost worn out from the struggle.

During the struggle, the heavy rain fell in my area and making it so difficult for me to get into the car. I was also struggling to clear my stools . After I reached home , I went straight away for laxatives . Took one pill but it is actually requiring two pills for adults.  There was no result and I was still stuck. The pain have increased drastically and I was more and more uneasy.  Finally, I decided to took green fibre to speed up the solution . But , it still does not work . Then I took another pill but all these efforts was in vein and fruitless.  I was still stuck.

Then I have lost my appetite due to the discomforting pain while waiting for the laxative to work .  I took green fibre and then I took another banana to speed up the impact to my system but it is still unuseless.

Finally , in the evening , I thought of going to the hospital to get the stools suck out but finally , I decide to go the pharmacy to get a set of bullets  ie waxy ones and to push it into my ass to see whether it will worked or not.   I felt be raped by the bullet but it has to be done anyway in order to avoid going to the hospital. Just 10 minutes , the stools came out and I was so relieved by the result .

I could have done it this way from the moment , I was stuck in the morning but my ignorance betrayed me. Finally, it was a simple wax bullet that do the cure.

Why do we not learned from the past experience ?  I have been through it a couple of times in the past but my lack of memory failed me to resort to this basic steps . It was a simple step and yet , I am going in circles until we become im- bearable .


Good help me... thank you , thank you... I am free again.

MBPP complain form - Public park at Jalan Semarak Api , Bandar Baru Air Itam, Penang

Wow , I don't know this was one of my article in my blog as I have written complaints to MBPP but I have not written anything on this form in my blog.

I have written to MBPP on the illegal temple opposite my house with the Indian disciples building a shed next to it to house themselves.  I could see several cars park on the public park and since , this is a public park , nobody could build anything or rear anything on this public land.

Why is the park allowing the construction an Indian temple ?  Isn't the park is a green lung for all the people housing in the area.  I have written volumes of objections to this mis-use of the public park and there was no action but only acknowledged reply from the person in charge.  Where is the rule of law ? 

The funny thing is that the temple was undergoing renovation and changing the God which was house in the temple.  Maybe another group of people is taking over the temple.  How can it be done ?  Is the land transferable ? Isn't this a public park ?  I think the people staying there must be a power war lord and someone of significant connections.

I raise the  question of electricity supply to the temple a long while ago ? TNB cannot do anything and was silence on their part.   I asked them this basic question , why is there a temple in the public park? Another matter is that there was also a 40' ft container lying in the park ?   Is Malaysian land so easily to be occupied by the public ? It is a horrible and messy subject matter.  Can we make money from a  public park , this is another horrible assumptions.

I wonder how and why this contravention has happen and make mockery of the law and the park.  This is an example where "darkness gets stronger as the light retreat " .  A bully and a foolish act by the worshippers and how they can allow such objections to occur .


So bastards and those bullies,. it is time for all of us to enjoy pmsssssssssssssssss\\ 11                                                                                       

Our bondages in life

There was this saying by a homeless guy "  I cam into this world all alone and when I die, I will be the only one in my coffin ".  This is the truth of life and we come with nothing and we go with nothing.  But during our life journey, we gathers many dust and bondages on the way.

From birth, our bondages will start to gather .  We owe our life to our parents and if we are able to earn a living we will  have to take care of them.  We are indebted to them for bring us into this life and provide us the love , shelter , good and a  good education.  Then , we get married , this is another bondage of love and family and we have to take care of our wife and our children's needs.

If we start a family , we will need a job  and a house.  From the job , we have add on the bondage of the job to earn a living and also the debts to buy a house , a car and cater for the future of our wife and kids.  The bondage will get more and more and heavier and heavier.  It is like adding chains to our legs, hands and bodies . It became a burden to carry it around.

For some of us luckier ones, our working wife or children can help to reduce the bondage or the weight from the mid years but this is not a certainty.  The burden could be more if the family members got into money troubles or in any special conditions.  The weight could get heavier.

These bondages varies with each person's circumstances . Some maybe more and some maybe less .  Apart from these material bondage , there are many things happening to our body or our mind as we get old and these is based on the experiences in our life and also the condition of our mind. 

If our mind is stable and calm , then the mental burdens will come in  as one of our bondage.   We have to struggle with our mind and our body everyday until our dying days.  This is a must and a routine as many before us.  The mental or material bondages will wrapped strongly around us and make our lives heavier.

If we die, the bondage will be totally gone.  But in between our journey of life, bondage could be more or less and it  depends on the situation of a particular person. Some luckier or wise ones, could untie the bondage which have gathered around us.  A wise mind could help to untangled ourselves from the bondages we have gather in our life journey and through the experience which have happen to us. But, the true relieved from all these bondages is when we are gone. 

From birth , the bondages will gather around us and when we die, it will disappeared totally at the moment of death 

Namaste.

Stages of love and passion .

When we are young, our mother gives us all the passions , love and care until we complete our school. For some of us , we could enjoy the love earlier if we found the right partner on our journey through schools , college or university .

The initial period of love and passion is hot and tight with the time spend together flew by like a bust hot air balloon.  The courtship then was like magic in the air when there is love.  Time flies and love deepen.

Until we graduate , found a job  , it is time to get married and a new chapter will evolve with the desire and love to start a new family.  After marriage , the bondage becomes stronger and deeper . Some of us could have change some partners by then but it could be also a one man or one women affair.  The love is ever lasting and forever.  We are married until death do we apart. This is the situation of our Establishment and if we were to get separated earlier , it will be shameful for the couple as they are expected to live forever as a couple. 

After getting married and starting a family , the love and passion is shared among all the family members and the time for each other is getting less as the children start their growing up time.  This is where job, family and personal needs clashes with each other. 

Both the parents at the same time have to socialize with their colleagues or customers and their space is stretch even wider and at moments of weakness , there could be another matching partner appearing on the horizon and this could create complications to the working parents. 

As space , time and frequency of intimacy is getting in the way of the relationship, the love and passion will wane and maybe new love or passion could start or end , it will depends on the circumstances.  There are people always on the prowl for better relationship or matching needs. 

As the family grew older , the love and passion could change to care and help.  The relationship could step down to a looser link and could final fade into something strange.  From love and passion , it becomes hatred and strange at times as the demand for each other is getting worse or less.

So, with the feelings and magic gone, the marriage could become just a piece of paper to hold the couple together and it will get less and less important as boredom and the need for freshness becomes more vital to our lives.  It is sometimes better to tear off the marriage certificate which have become just a document and worthless at times.

However, for some , the love and passion remained strong and never waned until the dying days and this is really a true love and life with passion.

Namaste.

Is it better to divorce when the feeling is gone ?

Nowadays,  I have noticed that there are many divorce cases happening around me.  Most of the reasons are non compatibility of character ?  In the old times, people are keeping their marriage intact for the sake of keeping the family together or they go to the extend of forcing themselves to undergo the terrible feeling of hatred towards each other or living under a stressful and unhappy marriage. Now , everything has changed.

It is funny that once there was love and passion before marriage and after marriage , the true colors appeared and the lovebirds become enemies sleeping together in the same bed just to just to keep their marriage intact.  Is this worth the while ?  It must because of the wrongful teachings on family values over one's personal life.  There is so much fear , the fear of losing your better half or the fear of social stigma.  Or just a comparison with the Jones ?

What my personal view is that one's personal life is above all else ? Why the sacrifice for the family if one is not happy ? Why torture ourselves to withstand all the pain and happiness of living with an enemy besides us ?  Yes, our children is our responsibility due our decision to get married but it should be not be only one sided.  It should be a joint responsibility to bring the children up until they become independent.  After this bit of responsibility is done, our obligation is completed and we can part ways without any relationship.  There is no fear of loneliness or fearful of hatred for each other.

Once the passion and love is gone.  It is gone for whatever reasons it might be . So be it and if there is still some care left, then we should live as a friend or a good friend. Why is there so much angeror hatred after the couple divorce ?  Why is that we have to end up faced off with our supposedly "better halves ".  Human beings are so hypocritical ? 

We need to keep our senses and behave logically instead of controlled by our emotions.  We cannot become a slave to our emotions and we should remained calm and composed to end the relationship nicely and neatly.  Yes, if the other half is not working , then they could be a problem of dependency on each other , then an option have to work out so that the relationship among all the family members remained strong and good. It is useless crying over spoilt milk and making it miserable to all around us.

The people around the divorced couple will need to know where they stand and no to interfere with the lives of the couple after the divorce .. It is non of their concern and the couple must allowed to choose their way forward instead of listening to advise of the surrounding others.

Just remember when the passion and love stops and disappear, it is better to breakup and live the remaining of their separate lives happy and in the way they live. No need to hold on and cause misery or handship to the other partner. Let life flow and live on to the next chapter. 

Namaste.

Death is destinated while our fortunes in life is up to heaven.

Last Saturday , I saw this movie  and it was about the gangster days in Hong Kong.  The main character was two very famous Hong Kong actors . The gangsters were in control of all the brothel, drugs and gambling business with the support of the British and Hong Kong police.

There was so much fighting and killing among the gangsters to control the illegal trade territories and make as much money as possible.  The partnership with a top notch Police officer, Lau  and a drug kingpin, Yen was very successful in the illegal trade and they were making million during they heydays . More than the Hong Kong tycoon , Lee Kah Shin. 

Finally, there was so much backstabbing and betrayals among the drug lords and this lead to the killing of the family of the drug kingpin by British corrupted officials and their Hong Kong drug partners.  The drug kingpin was told by the Police officer Lau that the set up of the ICAC dept is after him and have asked the drug kingpin Yen  to get out of Hong Kong.

But, the drug kingpin Yen told the police officer Lau , those words " Death is  pre-destinated and Fortune lies in the hands of heaven " and he choose to stay to take revenge for the killing of his family members. The phrase have a meaning that there is no such thing as a " sure " death even if the odds are greatly against you unless it is written in the stars that you will be killed and whatever fortune you make , it also comes from the stars.

This does not mean that you can sit and wait for your fortune or for death to fall on you.  It means that even if the odds are greatly against you, you could still win or escape death. The next phase is how much you earn or how much is your fortune only God knows. The numbers are written in the stars in heaven.

I don't know whether this is true or not but these sayings have a history of many thousand years and in many incidents , it was come true for a lot of people.  So, you just have to work your best while death and fortune will come at their own time.  You need not worry but to live the moments to the best of your ability.

Namaste.

Image of your bedsheet - reflection of your mind at night

I have an uneventful last night in my  sleep.  So many thoughts went through my mind and it makes me a bit unsettled in the morning. My eyes were feeling tired and blur.  This is the same situation when each time I had a bad night .

This morning , I realized the mess on my bed sheet .  The wrinkles and criss line were very obvious and this reflects the mood or the thoughts that my mind have gone through the night before.  If you have a peaceful sleep, your bed sheet should appear neat and nice.  The image of my bed sheet is like a ripple in the pond after a small stone have been thrown in.  It rattles and becomes blurred with wrinkles.

Yeah , it could be a dream or thoughts going through our head which sent the ripples through our body and hence, our body's movement have caused the dis-organized mapping on the bed sheets.  The more trouble are the thoughts, the more disruptive in on the bed sheets. 

Our toss and turn during our sleep to turn away from the dream or the thoughts really mend a way to escape from this nightmare or upsetting thoughts.  It is true that what has gone through our mind and body is printed on the bed sheets.

So, we always say that the mind and body is one.  What goes through the mind , the body will act it out or shake it out .  Throw out whatever is bad and keep the good thoughts inside us.  The good thoughts will give us the peace of the mind and the body will remain in peace and harmony. 

But , what causes our dreams or thoughts ?  How can we control the good thoughts which will bring good and peaceful sleep ? When we are asleep , can we control our thoughts ?  I don't think that we can control what we think in our sleep ?  Our sub-conscious will take over and whatever is good or bad will come their way into our dreams and thoughts .  However, if we are awake and trying catch some sleep , then it is a different matter. The thoughts can be controlled by us and we can shut them off if we want. It also depends on our mood and we are strong and firm , we can command them but if we are weak and tired, this is where the thoughts will control and lead us.

The difference in this happening is between a " trained" or an " untrained mind".  A trained mind will give us a better control on our thoughts while an " untrained mind" is like the criss cross mapping on our bed sheets.  A troubled soul on an even bed and the result is a messed up bed sheet.

Namaste.

Life is unpredictable : Yours truly

My friend and colleague R is hospitalized suddenly after feeling tired and not well.  He was diagnosed as having a high blood pressure , weak heart and kidney.  Well , he was acting normal before that and going to lunch with me sometimes and eating whatever that was ordered.  Yes, he has done a by-pass but that was years ago . He was moving around well but he told me that the job pressure is getting too strong for him to bear.

Well, his boss was with him for only 2 1/2 years ago and he was looking for him to go back to the holding company. Recently, his wish was met as his boss was transfer recently. But within the two and half years, his health was affected so much due to  the work pressure. So, we better don't underestimated the power of work pressure on our health. Stress is a very dangerous and we better accept and find ways to flask it out.

Well , I think this is also a matter of age catching up with him. Lately, I also feel the stress and strain on my body as there are more aches and pains all around. It is better to take care of it at the bud when it first appear. Don't we just let it develop into a chronic pain and affect our overall health eventually.

What is money when we have poor health ?  It is better to be wise to accept that money is not everything but enough of it is also very important.  When it is time to say goodbye to our working life , we better take a hard look at it and make a fast decision unless there are reasons to stay on. Staying on for more money in our bank is a foolish act. 

Many of my younger staff told me that use what we have when we are around rather than looking at our bank account from the sky after we die. One of my staff starts to wear all her silver jewellery after we talk our life time wishes.  She realized that we should wear or use everything that we are given or bought and should not keep this items to be use in the future.  She worries that these items if left unused could be used by her husband's future wife or girlfriend , if she suddenly pass away .  Well, this is very wise indeed and at least, she realized that we cannot be living for a thousand years and life is very unpredictable.  Eat what you like to eat, wear what you like to wear and live within your means and enjoy your life as much as possible.  Yes, her positive and wonderful attitude make me realized that it is better to live well and not to live long and be miserable to ourselves for the future.

Yeah, this should be the way forward .

Namaste.

Usage of abusive words

Some people consider themselves to witty or smart and " run fire" by using abusive or sarcastic words to humiliate  the people around them.  They feel that it is their right but contrary, it his a human right abuse or an insult to the intelligence of the people. So, these users of this tactic to push or punish another person is wrong and unwelcome.  They become people with thorns or spikes.

Why do we need to make us so unwelcome and despised by the people around us especially people who have been caring and supportive of us.  Can we hold back a little and try to be a nicer people instead of  despised by all.  Why need to put show their fangs and give insult to people ? There must be a reason.  He or she must be sick and they are not aware of it.

To throw our worries or hurt other people verbally by words is not smart but foolish in the end.  We should gain the respect of the people around us instead of putting fear in them and make them respect you.  How can it be ? Respect is not demanded but to be earned.  So, those abusive people must understand this point.  Holding a high position and have power , is not very thing.  All the power will ceased when the title is taken back.  How foolish can this people be ?

Another thing is that , if we want respect , we have to be respectful to others .  This is a simple logic, so abusive people are normally unhappy and sick people who want the best for themselves while belittling others and make them feel great. 

Maybe , they are controlled by their own emotions and they become another person which may not be what they want to be.   Such changes in the personality and behavior is like a sick person and this is hidden and sightless but damaging to the health and karma of that person.

Namaste.

Some nasty thoughts

When some driver drove his car into my lane , I am upset and would wanted to scold the driver badly.  That was what happen to me last eveing , a driver just shalve his old car into my lane suddenly while I was driving home.  Some nasty thoughts just took over from me.  I could have bang his car or pull out driver and scolded him properly or ask him to fly kite.

Yes, the nasty thoughts just shoot up in my head and push my anger to a melting point.  I would kill him or wack him up but all these are just thoughts and it has not trigger me to do any physical movement.  Yeah, the thoughts is only killing me while that stupid fella , just don't realized it.  What am I doing to myself by letting these thoughts troubled me badly.  This is my choice but yet , the thoughts took over me and make me act like a bloody fool.  Why am I hurting myself without letting the other fella knows or feel it .

This happeing showed that we are not the master of ownself.  Our emotions and feeling could take over from us and give us sleepless nights or torturing our body.  It is just like opening my car window and shout at him " Fuck you , fellas ' . But does these words hurt him ? Maybe he did not even realized it that you are upset and he has the pleasure to laugh at it.   " Haha , that stupid fella ".  I am suffering and punished by my negative emotions and that fella can enjoy the instance.  I must be stupid lah.

It is not always , someone do it to me but at times, I do it on to other people.  Just like one of the day , where I suddenly changed lane and the driver behind was honking him loudly and I just smile and tell myself , that mad fella, honking like an idiot.  Yeah, we feel not affected at all by such instances.

Yeah, you do it one day and I do it one day , this is a natural routine but the anger and displeasure from these instances really makes me feel helpless with my emotiions.  It is easy to say then done. But I have to try to control my focus and also my own perception of things.  Yes , this is all within us.

Namaste.

Another Wesak day gone by

Three days ago, we celebrate the Wesak Day and it just went by like another other previous Wesak Day. Any difference , just chanting , prayer and the usual routine of celebrating the Day.  Nevertheless, it maybe another routine but it helps to bring up the awareness of the believers' compassion. 

One of the wisdom is " don't be just a taker but instead try to be a giver ".  Coming to think about it, we valued our wealth very much and we accumulated as much as possible through greed.  Cash is king or money means power . The power to enjoy our lives with all the materialistic things which end of our day , we cannot carry with us into our next life.  But , the pressure of having the wealth and the power over our life means everything to us.  We earn, save and keep and we are willing to give as giving means less wealth and less power.

It is a wonder why our mind play this trick on us ?  We can be as happy with just enough for us to live a simple life , in a simple house and with simple food and money not spend or given away is a useless piece of paper.  Our senses of security by holding on it  is a false sense which have been taught to us in our education system or through the influence of people. We are just following and not living.

We struggle day and night , suffering restless days and nights while working like a dog and this is just to make us rich and secured. Life is unpredictable and death is certain.  If we can understand this wisdom and breakaway from our entrenched thoughts of " more " means " excellent" , our life will be happier and freer.  We can have a more balance of life and only do the things that we like or when we like instead of stuck in a hole to get more money. 

Yeah, Master Time waits for no one and it is better to have the wisdom than to blindly follow the examples of the Jones.  Our thoughts of big, more or huge means everything to us.  A bigger house, a bigger car, a more beautiful wife, a fat bank account , many hypocratic friends, a big land bank , a spacious office, etc are everything we want. 

I was told at lunch time that one richman's daughter was spending everyday RM300 on just drinking coffee and her meal. She is having 7 difference sport cars and is not working .  Isn't this excessive ?  now the richman has fallen from the sky because of the new Government in Malaysia, What if all her father's riches are gone with the wind, how can she manage her life style ? She will  be struggling to live by the day and this is the law of Karma.  What reap what we sow.

So, lets wake up our senses on each Wesak Day and look ourselves in the mirrow and wake up to the realities of wisdom.

Namaste.

A new Government , a new beginning

Yeah , syabas to all Malaysians.   It is really something great to change a Government of 61 years for a new government.  There was plenty of excitement and now , we are free to read newspapers for the truth and I hope this will remain free and honest.

I read an article in the edge regarding an interview with Tun Mahatir.  Yeah , they asked him whether it is destiny that pulls him back to manage the country again and his reply was that he did not believe in destiny but he felt that he was a duty to do something when the country is gathering more debts and there was so much mismanagement and scandals.  Yes, he loved Malaysia too much to see it goes down the pipes .

For a 92 years old man, I think he should be tired and weak but it turns out that age is just a number for him.  He walks strongly but of course, unstably but what can you asked of a 92 years old . Most people would have been dead by then and who on earth can come out again to put things right .  The time is closing in and if he takes over this heavy responsibility , he could be looking for death sooner.

His spirit and desire to put things right is really an inspirational point.  I think all the troubles make him strong again and alert.  Of course,  master Time will be the final decision maker but waking up everyday with so much things to do, will keep him moving.

If is not easy to handle 4 component parties and with some many previous foes in the same camp and managing the country.  Furthermore , he choose a Chinese as the Finance Minister which makes him unpopular with certain sector of the society.  He needs good and qualified people to help him and the previous finance minister was also the PM and see how he screwed up the country.  He has a valid reason and like Deng Xao Peng, the former China's PM says , it does not matter whether it is a bad or with cat and if the cat catches the rat then it is a good cat.  Yeah, he is faced with so much problems and have to make so much tough decisions relating to the people he knows or don't know. 

He cuts the salary of the ministers by 10% , reduce GST rate from 6% to 0% , closed down or merged unnecessary government depts. , fired 17,000 political appointees , change the top brass of the various authorities and maybe will reduce the size of the civil service. 

He has come second time around and he knows that if he continued to use the Malays only , the new government will fall in no time and the hypocratic PAS is waiting around like a parasite.  He has to use all the talents around him to survived and re-structure the country.

My cap is off for you , Tun Mahatir .. Keep  up the good work.

What a big bull shit !!

Bullshit can get you high but it cannot protect you forever..  a real knowledge and inner capability is better than putting up a bullshitting front.  Like the story of the turkey who eat bullshits to fly higher and higher while it was finally shot down by a passing hunter.

Like beauty, the outer image of a person can be a dying fact .. One day , you look beautiful and pretty and the next day , you can fade into an ugly old fool.  This is the nature that you cannot control.   You can only delay it but it will surely come. 

So, the inner beauty or strength is more important than anything external and don't aim to apple polish to look good or be good as the apple can also dry up and drop off .  It is only putting forward a front , that is illusion and not permanent.  A passing flare .

In life, we have to have  a good principled and orderly self and be a contributor to society instead of making us live in an artificial world by being someone which we are not.  We have to do what is required of us or do what we need to say or do irrespective of who is standing in front of us or around us.  Looking good and be a yes man is very deplorable and disgusting.

Life is a passing flare and it will dim with time.  In brightness , we do what is proper and when it is dim , we have no regrets.  So move on , my honorable fellas .

Move on.

Namaste.

Age and time waits for no one

This is a typical Chinese saying and this phase appears in many books or lyrics of songs written or sang by many old and new writers or singers. It has a very deep meaning and age goes with time and when it ends , we just vanished..  It does not matter whether we are in a box or a pot or a verse , we will have this day at the end. 

Some one told me that what we need is only a cubicle or a space of 6 by 4 either in inches or feet , it does not matter when we are dead.  What is the problem when we are gone ? Somebody have also decided that their ashes is throw into the sea to feed the fishes and that is the end of it.

I read in an article that our brain remained a live for two hours after we die and we can still receive the verbal message during this time.  Yeah, it is good that the living knows about it and assure the dead to move on peacefully or cry out as much as possible to show their grief .. But is there a purpose, it is only a one way traffic from the living to dead.  To some  people, it maybe that best way to say what you want to say while letting go.

Yes, life can be terminated but the memories will live on for as sometime  before everything is forgotten and neglected.  If you are aware, you will notice that there are so many graves or cubicles left unattended over a period of time while the living goes back to their routine life and have to remained busy to earn a living or sustain their living.  This is the path that all human beings have to follow . For some , they will move on and re-marry or get another companion to live for the remaining part of their lives.  This is very real and logical .  The dead is dead and gone and there is no more feelings or emotions left to be jealous about . The connection is broken and any relationship is gone. What is the problem ?

Life is fragile , delicate and illusive.   There are so many ups and downs , so many new relationship and broken lives , all for a sake of a few 10 years .  Life is a dream , life is a movie , life is journey but whatever, it is , it has to end someday.

So live well , eat well and enjoy every moment before it is gone.

Namaste.

If you want change, change will come.

Everything depends on us and if we choose to change , things will change with us.  It is not materialistic things but events which is within our control.  But, if you want rain, then it is out of our control as this is not within our power.  But , you want to change your life or make up , it is within your power. 

If you want riches, then it lies in between what you want or what is not controllable by you.  By sheer determination most things is achievable.. To get rich , we can do so many things in our life to pursue that objective.  If we try hand and persistent , we can be also rich or more rich.  What I am saying that there are some certain things or probable things which we can do to achieve it.

But , if we were to choose to run around in circles or in a routine ,then expecting something different is sheer madness and it will be at the mercy of the heaven.  Seldom this mercy will occur. By real effort and determine action, we could increase our probability of achieving the richness we can obtain.

If you look at any thing in focus.  It is not to say that it is not achievable but our mind will play trick on us .  We must be aware of our mind's game and how we perceive a thing.  If we look at it positively , we will move in a positive manner and we will achieve the objectives. But , if we think negatively, we will not move but shy away from the adventures to achieve the objective.  This means trying or not trying makes a whole lot of difference.

By moving , we already put the process of change on the run and moving towards the objective we want. This is very true but staying back , our distance from achieving it is near impossible .

So, take the first step in very thing we do or want changes.  In return, changes will come.

Namaste.

Be aware of passing time.

*Every time , I saw an old man or women walking on the street , I become aware that one day, I will be like them . Struggling to walk or cross the streets or seeking help. It is unavoidable and imminent that everyone of us have to pass the stage.

When I was younger, there is no problem as I have the health and strength to pass the day smoothly and without having any problem.  But now, although I still don't have these problems yet, I could sense that time is catching up with me. There is a wise thought that as things gets little or smaller, what is remaining or lacking becomes more prominent and more precious. This analogy also applies to everything.

It is not strange that different things become important at different time and in different space. 

There is this analogy that when we are 10 years old, we carry with us a 10 years' problem and if we are 20 years old , we carry with us a 20 years problem including memories and this goes on with 30 years or so on.  Our mind will be cloaked with all the problems and memories and we will be going through all these memories from time to time until we are phased out. 

A 10 years old life span and a 60 years  old life span have so much difference in texture and depth .  For a 60s man, time becomes more important than money or materials but for a 60s' old man, the priority is health and money slides down the grade of importance. Money becomes a mean of survival instead of enriching him or herself.  So , different era have different priorities.

At a young age, we are definite to wake up the next day or no worries of the coming days, weeks or years but for a person of 60s' , every day is a bonus day and we look forward to days and not years .  However, to some people age is just a number. Lets be frank and factual , life is limited anyway whichever way you look or believe. 

The day will end today and the sun will rise as we age by the day as TIME stops for no one.

Namaste

Turbulent times ahead

The GE 14 is here ! Another general election but it is a crucial event . There are calls to revive and reform Malaysia as part of the activities.  Some people asked whether there is possibility of change from within instead of change.  I think it is a matter of opinion.  Some think that the current Government is beyond repair but some thinks that it can be save again.

Whatever happens, it is a matter of survival whether it is under new or old.  But , it is good to have a two party system like in the US and many countries where each party can rule at intervals to keep each other at their toes. This check and balance system could be able to keep harm away and make the country strong.

A single party ruling for 50 or 60 years may become stale and routine.  Nothing change, nothing happens or when we change , changes would come in many forms. Change is always for the better as human being is always striving for better living and benefits.

Looking at the coming event, there will a lot of fireworks and dirty linens will be washed openly in the public making the situation worrisome and uncertain. There will be a lot of news ie good or bad and situation will get more tense. It is the first time , the Opposition Front is able to gather together as a group and posted a serious challenge to Najib's Government.

It is very important to maintain the true spirit of competition and we have to play it fairly.  Win or lose , it does not matter but it should be given to the winner.  If the loser wants to keep the winning steak despite losing , then there could be trouble or unhappiness.  This kind of happening occurs in many nations in the past. 

We should also avoid the manipulative actions ie like suppressing the press, re-write the rules and pressured the rival groups or using the unfair tactics to gain influence or points  and all these could lead to trouble and a more stronger rebellion of the election results.

Needless to say, a perfect situation will never occur and this is always the strong and rich ruling over the less stronger parties and do some unfair practice to oppress the oppositions. That is where the trouble starts. 

Lets pray for a less troublesome event and let peace prevail and the loser accepting the outcome fairly.

Namaste.

The flow of TIME

Yes, this is another new week and maybe another new Financial year for those in the accounting line.  It has been an  eventful past one year and so many things have happen and done.  The current trade war between the US and China is still on-going and each side remained defiant . Who will win ? If both sides were to hold on to their horses , the damage to the global economy will be great. When the elephants fight, the small animals will suffer the greatest . So much uncertainties prevailing now.

In Malaysia, our PM calls for a GE14 poll and it will happen within the next 60 days.. The campaigning is on and many dirty linens will be washed in the public with each side calling each other black ie the BN-led coalition and the "HOPE" or Harapan Opposition. Many things could be done or have been done to make the situation more fragile and difficult.

Where are the smaller "people" ? The current happenings is hurting them and pushing them to the blink. Life becomes more and more uncertain as the elephants fight and tear each other down. There are outsiders who will join in the fray and making it more difficult and complex.

By these two storms, more leaves will fall from the trees , either it is young or old leaves . The weak will fall and will die on the way.  It is so scary and worrying.

Sometimes, we think that we better no to worry but such happenings are unpredictable and hurting in the process. So, should we leave the  way to follow its path or let the time finds its tide.  What can we do, but to wait for the passage of time fir things to happen .  The problem is too big for us to mingle or to turn it to the way we like.  We are just not in the picture and we can only stay on the side line and watch for the happenings to go on and find its result .  The result may or may not to our liking but we have to accept the outcome and live on in whatever the conditions it will be.

However, we have to use our votes well in whatever rights we have to exercise. That is our path and that is our way to express that right but it may or may not have any impact as a single voter but if it comes in mass, hopefully , it will change the thing that should be.

Yes, we small fellas can only do just that and wait for the outcome to be and live our life as the best as we can. 

Namaste.