Last CNY was a horrible time for me as my 2nd sister suffered a fall and was in the ICU and I spend the whole of the CNY holidays visiting her there. Wow, it is a year again and time flies and now she is better but suffering from a lapse of memory. What can I do but only try to spend time with her and hope the almighty GOD will give her another chance to wake up from your memory.
I dream of her talking and moving about before and I am waiting for the day as she progress rather slowly but surely. Maybe , this is her path and she has to get through it herself. I have asked her to come back from where she is but no avail.. Like what the Doctor told us, the brain behave in its mysterious ways . There is no medicine for her except to wait for her to wake up.
When I was with her , she glaze at me and put on a smile sometimes. I feel connected with her when she smile and look at me. Sometimes, she just tap on my lap lightly as if to tell me , not to worry . Yeah, I have began to accept her situation but pray for her to get back her memory so that we can start to talk again. She has been my soulmate all these while and I was initially lost in space when she was in a coma.
Well , this CNY could be better than the last as we gather for new year in silence. Comparing last year, it is really a bit more happier and calmer and with her sitting in silence next to me on the reunion dinner.
Sister, hope you can wake up so that we can talk again .
Namaste.
Monday, January 29, 2018
Tuesday, January 16, 2018
How many 10 years do we have ?
I have heard this phrase many times and it is frequently asked by many people . Life is very short and on the average it is only 7 to 8 times of 10 years. If we are nearer to the 6 times, the call will be more urgent as we have only two more times.
The 7 or 8 times of 10 years is already too short , given the fact that 20 years is for us to grow up before we become more conscious of what the world is all about while the last 20 years is for us to wind down and wither away. The number of 7 or 8 times is less than the number of our fingers. It is better for us to be conscious of how short it can be.
Master Time stops for no one and it moves like an arrow in some days but it is drag along in other days. It depends on us to be aware of this process.
If we look at the 8 of the 19 years period. Like I have said , the first 2 years is for us to grow up and another 2 of the ten years is to get a job, get married and start a family. Another 2 of the 10 years period is for us to pay back what we have gained from the society and giving back to our society. The last 2 of the 10 years, is to retire , stay healthy and live out our balance of our life . These phrases will complete our full journey. If we can live for another 10 years after our 8th of the 10 years, it is a bonus for all of us. How lucky or unlucky are we ?
Lucky is when we have another 10 additional yeas of living , unlucky is when we have to endure all the body pains and aches to live through that phrase of life. So, the outcome is depending how we are taking good care of ourself.
It is always good to be aware and change your mood of living . Live well, eat well and be generous.
Namaste.
The 7 or 8 times of 10 years is already too short , given the fact that 20 years is for us to grow up before we become more conscious of what the world is all about while the last 20 years is for us to wind down and wither away. The number of 7 or 8 times is less than the number of our fingers. It is better for us to be conscious of how short it can be.
Master Time stops for no one and it moves like an arrow in some days but it is drag along in other days. It depends on us to be aware of this process.
If we look at the 8 of the 19 years period. Like I have said , the first 2 years is for us to grow up and another 2 of the ten years is to get a job, get married and start a family. Another 2 of the 10 years period is for us to pay back what we have gained from the society and giving back to our society. The last 2 of the 10 years, is to retire , stay healthy and live out our balance of our life . These phrases will complete our full journey. If we can live for another 10 years after our 8th of the 10 years, it is a bonus for all of us. How lucky or unlucky are we ?
Lucky is when we have another 10 additional yeas of living , unlucky is when we have to endure all the body pains and aches to live through that phrase of life. So, the outcome is depending how we are taking good care of ourself.
It is always good to be aware and change your mood of living . Live well, eat well and be generous.
Namaste.
Insanity
Albert Enstien says that insanity is doing the same thing over again and again but expecting a different result. Yes, it is sheer madness to think this way.
Some dental doctors advised us to brush from left to right one day and change it from right to left another day or up first and followed by the bottom to vary our routine everyday. It this way, our day will start differently and end differently, it could be more fleshing and changing the result of the day.
Our lives is running round in circles everyday and it is becomes a routine and we become mad as we go round and round. But, it becomes a complacency as we are going through the safe routine and we emerged into a comfort zone. When we wake up, it could be the end of our life or in our twilight zone. By then, we will be afraid to try different routine until the day we die.
Human is an animal of comfort . We prefer to live peacefully and carefully instead of inviting trouble so that we can live longer. Why are we so timid ? We live in fear most of the time.
Fear is something we have to overcome and because of fear we are living in a repeated routine. Any thing out side our routine is unpredictable and risky. We fear of loosing our jobs, nothing to eat, no where to live or fearful of being hurt. All these fears live in us and kept us in a routine of circles. Round and round until we drop dead.
There was this example of a assembling plant worker and she only need to fix a nut on the complete device and she do it day after day . After many years, she don't know anything else but only to know how to put in the nut. She has to go through retraining to break her working habit or routine. Even that is done, once a while , she goes into her nut fixing routine. This is a psychological problem where a repeated routine can reform the character of a human being.
So we have to break our routine to give freshness to our life and let have a meaningful journey . Otherwise, it could be a repeated circle of routines and making us all nutty in the end.
Namaste.
Some dental doctors advised us to brush from left to right one day and change it from right to left another day or up first and followed by the bottom to vary our routine everyday. It this way, our day will start differently and end differently, it could be more fleshing and changing the result of the day.
Our lives is running round in circles everyday and it is becomes a routine and we become mad as we go round and round. But, it becomes a complacency as we are going through the safe routine and we emerged into a comfort zone. When we wake up, it could be the end of our life or in our twilight zone. By then, we will be afraid to try different routine until the day we die.
Human is an animal of comfort . We prefer to live peacefully and carefully instead of inviting trouble so that we can live longer. Why are we so timid ? We live in fear most of the time.
Fear is something we have to overcome and because of fear we are living in a repeated routine. Any thing out side our routine is unpredictable and risky. We fear of loosing our jobs, nothing to eat, no where to live or fearful of being hurt. All these fears live in us and kept us in a routine of circles. Round and round until we drop dead.
There was this example of a assembling plant worker and she only need to fix a nut on the complete device and she do it day after day . After many years, she don't know anything else but only to know how to put in the nut. She has to go through retraining to break her working habit or routine. Even that is done, once a while , she goes into her nut fixing routine. This is a psychological problem where a repeated routine can reform the character of a human being.
So we have to break our routine to give freshness to our life and let have a meaningful journey . Otherwise, it could be a repeated circle of routines and making us all nutty in the end.
Namaste.
Friday, January 12, 2018
Our path through life
I have become more sober and real after achieving 64 as my body is changing as I aged. It is no joke as all the symptoms of our body illness gradually appear in our life. Our blood pressure, our sugar level , our cholesterol level , our uric acid and our joints . Somehow , we will sense all these ill beings.
How long can we live ? 80 years ? The first 60 maybe so so good but moving into mid 60s or 70s , the feeling will not be the same. There are people who do not have the symptoms but can experience certain health checks after certain age and it could be deadly.
Once I have a staff who detected her liver problem during a routine health check and she ask me why is her to get the sickness. I have no answers to her as when GOD wants us to die at 3pm , we cannot delay it for 5pm or not even a minute. After detecting the illness, she went for an operation and was living well until today or may in along future. Now, she told me that knowing the illness, she can prepare or take care of the problem and hopefully at very young time instead of detecting the problem when it is too serious . Yes, this is the best way of looking at the problem.
How many 10 years do we have ? Maybe 8 or 9 of 10 years and at 60, it is only one or two 10 years more. What do we expect as one by one of our old friends have gone on their path while we gets more and more sick as we age. Death should be the ultimate ending as common sense have taught us.
We can only delay the outcome but the end will always come . Nobody can avoid it . if we can live forever, why do we need to get up in the morning . Living give us a sense of urgency as time is limited and we have to move fast to get all our things done. Think about it and it is very true indeed. When we cannot die, everything became boring and dull and meaningless.
Namaste
How long can we live ? 80 years ? The first 60 maybe so so good but moving into mid 60s or 70s , the feeling will not be the same. There are people who do not have the symptoms but can experience certain health checks after certain age and it could be deadly.
Once I have a staff who detected her liver problem during a routine health check and she ask me why is her to get the sickness. I have no answers to her as when GOD wants us to die at 3pm , we cannot delay it for 5pm or not even a minute. After detecting the illness, she went for an operation and was living well until today or may in along future. Now, she told me that knowing the illness, she can prepare or take care of the problem and hopefully at very young time instead of detecting the problem when it is too serious . Yes, this is the best way of looking at the problem.
How many 10 years do we have ? Maybe 8 or 9 of 10 years and at 60, it is only one or two 10 years more. What do we expect as one by one of our old friends have gone on their path while we gets more and more sick as we age. Death should be the ultimate ending as common sense have taught us.
We can only delay the outcome but the end will always come . Nobody can avoid it . if we can live forever, why do we need to get up in the morning . Living give us a sense of urgency as time is limited and we have to move fast to get all our things done. Think about it and it is very true indeed. When we cannot die, everything became boring and dull and meaningless.
Namaste
Tuesday, December 26, 2017
our journey through life
Suddenly at this senior age, I came to realize the fragility of life and as we aged some friends just drop off or passes away and our health gets weaker during the journey. I have told you before that some people who takes good care of themselves but found out that they have contact serious illness or the big C while those people who live the most rugged life could be ill free. Even those very close to GOD and have been praying intimately with GOD suffers from serious illness or the big C. In other words ,there are no protection for illness.
In the old Chinese saying, if the God fo Hade wants us to die at certain time , we cannot asked to be deferred on our death. Any extension of time is rather impossible and absolute.
As my age grow, I have to do many things to maintain my health and each step is getting difficult as we aged. There so many critical illness and most insurance company offers 36 types of critical illness and as we advance , the list gets shorter and shorter until there is no more insurance coverage for certain disease as we aged. But , on the other hand , the cost of insurance or treatment gets higher by the day. An eye operation for cataract was only RM5K some years ago and now it cost more than RM8K for each eye. How can we bear the cost especially those earned hand to mouth and it is a matter of waiting to die. Reality bites and we all in trouble if we don't plan. If we cannot get a RM1 million coverage , a RM100K coverage could help as well if not much.
I was admitted to a hospital and I have to go through panel doctors to check for the outcome while I have to go through imaging, x-ray and a CT scan in one morning and I think my stay at the Hospital for two days cost me RM5k or more. What if I choose to go to a clinic and get my problem solved without further medical check up, it will only cost me RM150 for the treatment. The difference is the comfort of the hospital compared to a clinic and also the availability of the equipment to check my problem. I makes me feel that the Doctors have a syndicat3e and a plan to catch the big fish if they see want. I have to force to do all the checking without them asking me. What a conspiracy.
Anyway, I know my outcome and I have to be careful on my lifestyle , food and movement . What needs to be done , needs to be done. It maybe a good way or a bad way , but nothing is absolute right or wrong.
Namaste.
In the old Chinese saying, if the God fo Hade wants us to die at certain time , we cannot asked to be deferred on our death. Any extension of time is rather impossible and absolute.
As my age grow, I have to do many things to maintain my health and each step is getting difficult as we aged. There so many critical illness and most insurance company offers 36 types of critical illness and as we advance , the list gets shorter and shorter until there is no more insurance coverage for certain disease as we aged. But , on the other hand , the cost of insurance or treatment gets higher by the day. An eye operation for cataract was only RM5K some years ago and now it cost more than RM8K for each eye. How can we bear the cost especially those earned hand to mouth and it is a matter of waiting to die. Reality bites and we all in trouble if we don't plan. If we cannot get a RM1 million coverage , a RM100K coverage could help as well if not much.
I was admitted to a hospital and I have to go through panel doctors to check for the outcome while I have to go through imaging, x-ray and a CT scan in one morning and I think my stay at the Hospital for two days cost me RM5k or more. What if I choose to go to a clinic and get my problem solved without further medical check up, it will only cost me RM150 for the treatment. The difference is the comfort of the hospital compared to a clinic and also the availability of the equipment to check my problem. I makes me feel that the Doctors have a syndicat3e and a plan to catch the big fish if they see want. I have to force to do all the checking without them asking me. What a conspiracy.
Anyway, I know my outcome and I have to be careful on my lifestyle , food and movement . What needs to be done , needs to be done. It maybe a good way or a bad way , but nothing is absolute right or wrong.
Namaste.
Tuesday, November 28, 2017
A mad snake
Someone sent me an interesting story about the battle between a snake and a saw. One day, the snake was hit by a revolving as it was moving around and the snake turn to coil around the saw to squeeze it to death and in the process, it suffers more pain. Due to the pain, it turn around to bite the saw and got killed. The lesson is never to fight something that you dun know and in return, get hurt and killed. To live a life in peace is knowing who is your opponent and win the battle a thousand times or live like and ostrich and get killed unnecessary.
I recalled the incident yesterday at my yoga class. My teacher's father have change the roof of a nearby house which was close to the gym and the chemical smell was still heavy and I hesitated to attend the class and the teacher asked me to decide whether to stay or the workout or to leave the gym . I was hesitant which she keep pushing me for an answer. Finally, I stayed as I want to workout with my wife who was coming later. She behave like the mad snake and started to get nasty with me.
I wanted to tell her off as it is my right to decide whether to stay or to go home and why does she need to hurry me.
All the time I believed she is a bad business person. In my life, I found that those skillful people are bad business man. They are very proud of what they can do and can never accept criticism to their work. They re-act with anger and get themselves hurt in return. There are many actors or artist who have been cheated of their earning or savings as they have no business sense except the pride over their work. They become emotional when someone criticize their work as they can see perfections in their work and is not really sensible.
All customers are like King while we cannot fight the king as they have their own choice ,beliefs and likings. If they serve with anger and emotions , they are just driving away the customers and their business cannot last for long.
Nevertheless, I am in control , sober and patience and does not that the happening to hurt us.
Namaste.
I recalled the incident yesterday at my yoga class. My teacher's father have change the roof of a nearby house which was close to the gym and the chemical smell was still heavy and I hesitated to attend the class and the teacher asked me to decide whether to stay or the workout or to leave the gym . I was hesitant which she keep pushing me for an answer. Finally, I stayed as I want to workout with my wife who was coming later. She behave like the mad snake and started to get nasty with me.
I wanted to tell her off as it is my right to decide whether to stay or to go home and why does she need to hurry me.
All the time I believed she is a bad business person. In my life, I found that those skillful people are bad business man. They are very proud of what they can do and can never accept criticism to their work. They re-act with anger and get themselves hurt in return. There are many actors or artist who have been cheated of their earning or savings as they have no business sense except the pride over their work. They become emotional when someone criticize their work as they can see perfections in their work and is not really sensible.
All customers are like King while we cannot fight the king as they have their own choice ,beliefs and likings. If they serve with anger and emotions , they are just driving away the customers and their business cannot last for long.
Nevertheless, I am in control , sober and patience and does not that the happening to hurt us.
Namaste.
Monday, November 27, 2017
Where was I for the past few months ?
I just stop writing for a few weeks after my return form my China trip. It was done and gone and I am back to work. It was one chapter of my life in my life after taking leave for a few days. Yes, life is make up all these chapters and a lot of things have happen in within these few weeks.
My sister in law, M have been traveling and her last stop was Turkey and she shown us a few very beautiful photo of the place. She is a cancer survival and we hope that she will be well after her cancerous part was removed. I was told that she is going for an MRI for her stomach and hopefully nothing serious is found. She is an extremely healthy person before the discovery of her condition. She does fast walking almost every day , yoga and gym . She is eating a proper diet and all the good food before the discovery of the cancer. I hope GOD have mercy on her and return her to the path of good health.
My sister is in the same condition without her memory but she looks healthy even as she is bedridden but remained a stranger to me. Some times , she look at me for a long time and smile and I hope she is slowly getting her memory back. It is been hopeful and without hope life will be nothing and boring. My daughter May told me that she will do everything to get a smile from her. This is really warm and touching.
For me, the pain in my body is slowly getting worst and I hope my yoga and weekly massage sessions will go me good. I have started to go to the gym again and hopefully, I can maintain the discipline. We always go for something good and shy away from exercise or painful experience during the work outs . This is human nature to be comfortable. Otherwise, life should be good for me.
Time is the master and we should not be too comfortable as age with catch up with us and put us down. I have seen the path and we can only defer the pain by doing all the exercise and eating all the good food but eventually, the end will come . This is unavoidable as this is the only path.
There are many people who wants to prolong life as long as possible by whatever means to enjoy all the goodness in life. There is a limit even if you have all the riches in the world . Time is the master and death is certain.
Namaste.
My sister in law, M have been traveling and her last stop was Turkey and she shown us a few very beautiful photo of the place. She is a cancer survival and we hope that she will be well after her cancerous part was removed. I was told that she is going for an MRI for her stomach and hopefully nothing serious is found. She is an extremely healthy person before the discovery of her condition. She does fast walking almost every day , yoga and gym . She is eating a proper diet and all the good food before the discovery of the cancer. I hope GOD have mercy on her and return her to the path of good health.
My sister is in the same condition without her memory but she looks healthy even as she is bedridden but remained a stranger to me. Some times , she look at me for a long time and smile and I hope she is slowly getting her memory back. It is been hopeful and without hope life will be nothing and boring. My daughter May told me that she will do everything to get a smile from her. This is really warm and touching.
For me, the pain in my body is slowly getting worst and I hope my yoga and weekly massage sessions will go me good. I have started to go to the gym again and hopefully, I can maintain the discipline. We always go for something good and shy away from exercise or painful experience during the work outs . This is human nature to be comfortable. Otherwise, life should be good for me.
Time is the master and we should not be too comfortable as age with catch up with us and put us down. I have seen the path and we can only defer the pain by doing all the exercise and eating all the good food but eventually, the end will come . This is unavoidable as this is the only path.
There are many people who wants to prolong life as long as possible by whatever means to enjoy all the goodness in life. There is a limit even if you have all the riches in the world . Time is the master and death is certain.
Namaste.
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