We are dying all the time..

I watch a movie with the title "Criminal Mind" and in one part of the movie, the criminal lawyer, who had successfully defended a serial killer, visited his dying professor at a hospital ward. He asked his professor what he can do for him and professor told him "nothing" and after looking at his student's tired face, he told him that " we are dying all the time ". This phrase seem to have touch a deep spot in me as if it makes a lot of sense to me. Maybe, it was because of seeing two relative dying within a short time from each other.

If we look at ourself, our physical body is dying all the time. The skin on our body and cells in our brain replaces itself a thousand times a day and it prompted the belief that all of us is inter-connected because of us is actually in one Universe. The minute cells are floating all around us and into the universe. If we use a powerful microscope to look at our body, we can see the gathering of millions of cells, bind together by a life force. If the life force leave the body, it will disintegrate and become ashes. There are gaps between the skin or the cells filled by liquid and fluids. Bits and pieces of skins in thousands die every second and new ones grow to replace us. There is a study that if we quarrel with someone or we hit a high pitch in a song, thousands of cells will die in the process. But, it will replaces itself later. So, the whole evolution or a universe is operating in our body and parts will die and the body mechanism will repair itself. In the air, there are billions of molecule cells floating around and mingling around connecting all ofus. Our physical body gradually die in the process of aging until the whole physical body is completely dead when we die.

This is only one aspect and in our daily life, we encountered many disappointment and emotional pains which bury our principles and killed our feelings. We became harden over time. Emotionally, we can be killed many times and live again through the pain of dying again. That is hurting and recovery and the process repeat itself. How can our feelings or emotion die? It happens from the moment, we buried our righteousness or until the stage of not been able to differentiate what we do is right or wrong and continued to do the wrong things and justifying it to be right, we are already dead. SOme people became walking dead or zombie and committing all the crimes in the world and justify its actions. Henceforth, our emotions are in the process of dying as well.

In the movie,the criminal lawyer knew his client is a serial killer and he went all out to defend him until he was acquitted. After that, he knew that he had set free a serial killer. He refused to review this fact and he tried his best to defend his case until he was full of guilt and repentance. To overcome the evil in himself, finally, he gather his guts to confront his evil client and kill him. Of course, there is much more to the movie but the message was the dying conscience of the criminal lawyer which drove him to this desperation.

Many things in us die and relive and die again until the day we die. Having said that, if there is no dying, there is no living. It takes two to tango or to survive a complete life.

Namaste.