Trying to catch sleep in a distant land

It is like a cat and mouse game. The more you want to catch the rat, the more illusive it will be but if you don't want it, it will come by itself. You can try whatever method but it will come at its own will.

Life is like this uncertain nature. What we want in life if it is yours , then it will be yours. If it is not yours, how hard you try, you will not get it. This illusive nature of life makes life interesting. Otherwise, if you get what you want then where is the thrill. It is so easy.

If you want a thing, we should lay the foundation for it and sow an apple seed if you want an apple tree and you have to sow it in the right place. Do the right thing. Never say "can't or try" and just do it and carry out the necessary preparation. For example, if we give alot to charity,then in turn, we will be blessed with good health and wealth. Even if we do get anything or do not expect anything, we will feel good that we have help other people.

It is true that in life, we should not expect anything in return for the deeds that we do. It may not come because the good you do today is to ease the misdeed you did in the past or the good deeds you did today, it will be accumulate for your misdeed tomorrow or in the future. Whether this is true or not, nobody knows. If your good deeds you do is in excessive then you enlightenment maybe possible or you will achieve extreme fulfillment in life and may escape the realm of human life.

We can only speculate and make ourself believe that such method of accounting is in the system. This GOD fearing nature in us will help us to keep in line and discipline ourself on a regular basis. If you believe, we don't need the truth to convince us.

The good or bad of human nature is within one's choice. The Holiness, the Dalai Lama said that if we cannot help other people, we should not do anything to hurt them. We should discipline ourself in our daily acts and our thoughts. If we think of a misdeed in our mind, it will could make you follow your thinking and carry out the misdeed. So, we should discipline our mind to prevent occurence of the act.

For now, my restless mind is fill with thoughts, moving in and out sapping my energy and makes tired but yet sleep still illusive and not coming forth even after put my thoughts in this message to all of you. I am feeling more calm and restful now and would attempt to think about loving kindness and compassion.

I will just hope and believe that if we let nature take its course and let sleep decides when is the timing to come.

Good night, folks.

Namaste.