Tuesday, January 31, 2017

In the twilight

The path of life have a few 10 years span. The first 20 years is growing up , next 10 years is starting a family and the next is to stabilize our achievements until the age of 60 and it will down hill after that until we finished our path.  This a natural and common life span of the normal people.  Some people live to the ripe old age of 100 but the average life span is about 75 to 80. If we beat the point, an additional year is a bonus to us.

However, some people are more conservative and after the age of 50, every day is a bonus to them.  They will thank GOD for the wonderful new day and accept the blessing of been able to open their eyes for another day. It is just like drivers who only pump their people when the tank gets empty and some pump their petrol at the half way point.  There are so many different type of characters in life and there is no right or wrong. Some people are more prudent and some are taxing themselves to the fullest. They are so called the " risk takers".

I am born in the period of the baby boomers and some famous names during my time is starting to die one by one.  The latest is Mary Tyler Moore . She was the start of her own shown and she was so famous and beautiful during her prime. Additionally, she is so cheerful and funny.  She died at 83.  When the news came, it was a waking reminder that life have a limit.  It could be near or it could be far. During the Christmas time, George Michaels was dead in his mid fifties.  Some people reach their average age, some people young and some people is still living in their 100 years.

Maintaining a good lifestyle is a pre-requisite to a longer life but sometimes, it depends on your own path or fate.  It is never a guarantee.

Namaste.

The next world

Next world

What is a next world ? Have not thought about it . Is it like the next room ? Just open the door to another works or realm . Funny , there must be many dimensions but we cannot move through the dimensions until we die or vanished . It is only hearsay and we do not know whether is another world .

Many books and people claimed of seeing the third kind  and ghost busters have boosted of their findings . There is still no truth except some unexplained phenomenas . The third kind has not appear infront of us to explain what it like in another world or the next world . Neither has God appeared to preach or tell
Us what is in another world .

It is because of this uncertainty , death becomes scary . What is beyond the door ...? A steep cliff or a pitch darkness . An unknown path and what is going to happen next .

It is so strange that why the so many Gods have provided an answer . So is there really GOD ? I don't mean articles or books or hear says . Give us the facts and dispel the speculations .

Namaste

Come to term with life

The meaning of this phase is to accept what life give us and we live with it.  Does it mean that we have been fighting what life have given us ? Can we change what life is giving or given us ?  No, we have live the life and it is in the past .  Are we fighting against what life give us ?  We have make the choices and we have choose what life give us . Good or bad. The path is laid and we have to accept it.

There is a saying "  if we do move, nothing moves in our life ".  If we don't move, it is a choice and if we move it is another choice. Either way, we move or don't move,  we would not know what will happen . Can be a bit richer or poorer ? or can live longer or shorter.  We will never know.

If we move , does it mean that we are fighting life by not lying down.  It is a choice , we have and a choice we make.  From the hind side, we are always right and we have a long story to tell.   Before that we do not know what will happen. 

That is life. Just follow the flow and fulfill your path and live the life the best we can.  Nobody will know what is going to happen and by moving or not moving, you have chosen your path.

Namaste.

Saturday, January 28, 2017

The great compassion

Guan Yin , the great compassion

Lately , I have the chance to know what is Guan Yin ? People pray to Guan Yin, a Buddha for help as an almighty savior but the truth is Guan Yin represents loving kindness and the great compassion . Hence , to believe in Guan Yin is to believe in compassion and loving kindness. It is just a symbol but behind is the true representation .

Guan Yin's real name is "Guan Zi Cai" and it means " Look and relax".  The real problem in this world is that we look and make a decision or a judgement which could be wrong and we suffer over it . Here , we should look and relax and dun let the false image disturb us. Relax until you see the real truth.

In life , we look and expect the thing to last for forever and we cannot change or die . This is a misgiving. We sit on a chair and we believe the chair will remained forever but one day the day broke down and we asked the question "why". There is no reason why and it is just that everything is impermanence and it is changing all the time . We just ignore this awareness. The life cycle of birth, age , sickness and death is obvious that everything is changing .the quicker we catch or adopted it is better for us.

For thousand of years , it has been taught and billions of people have gone through and why is the difference to us  ?
Be aware , adopt and accept that we are going to die one day . It is not now but one day..
We are no different . Catch it ?

Namaste

Friday, January 27, 2017

To my dear sister

To my dear sister

I am writing directly from my heart . For the past 10 days , I saw you lying in your ICU bed motionless makes my heart sad and hurt . I just don't know how to help you apart from getting the Doctors to attend to you and with the nurses monitoring your progress .  Apart from that , I am useless while while my heart bleeds for you .

Each time , I see the Doctors they will tell me a different story . Some day you are better some day your condition become worst . Perhaps we have the notion that you should get better everyday and this is our hope .  Sometimes your condition remained unchanged and this happening also make us worry. Wake , my dear sister because we missed you so much.and we long to have a long talk with you like the good old days. Laughing , joking and having fun . I also shared a lot of my problem with you and you know most  my secrets .

CNY is so different without you as you have been able to hold everyone of us together for the first few days during the CNY.
Just wish for the good old days and where we can have the happy mood together .

Wake up , my dear sister and share the joy with us again .

Missing you a lot .

Thursday, January 26, 2017

Out of action

Our mind can be very messy like the fighting of the monkeys in our brain.  We are aware of the disturbing thoughts and we want to control it.  The more we control it , the more aggressive is the reaction. My adopted teacher , Ajahn Brahm advised his followers to be kind to the body or be kind to your sickness.  We have to make friends with the pain so that we can seek their cooperation and make our body stronger or to recover.

I wanted to do it but it just "run fire" and get out of control making my mind and my breath fluctuating up and down.  It is the practice to control our breath and we will control our mind but the repelling forces is too much , our brain activities often force our breath to lose control. The more we focus , the more disturbed we are.  I think Ajahn is correct, let the forces go where they want and be kind to our body and then we gather the rhythm  back into our breath.

Thoughts are be very disturbing , switching in and out of our body and making us very tired and disturbed and agitated at the same time.  It is very funny how such disturbing thoughts can just flood up into our thoughts despite our months of training our mind to be still.  the under current of our thoughts can be very powerful and it makes us breathless at times.

The only way is to continue to control our breath and our mind through practices and more wisdom.  We are just human beings and not super beings and that is why we are so unstable as we have not attain the stage of control our breath and our mind.

We have to live with the twist of happiness and sadness .  Buddha says that if there is happiness , there will be sadness as these factors sits in the extreme.. In order not to feel sadness, then we should abstain from happiness.  But , happiness is what we want , so we have to endure the sadness.  Not everyday is a good day for us , so we have to live and manage  our bad days when it comes.


Namaste.

A shade of grey

Suddenly, my life enters a period of grey after my  beloved sister suffered a fall and go into a coma.  It has been more than 10 days and she makes only very small recovery.  My whole world was upside down as she was very close to me and we becomes each others guiding angel. I have lost my soul mate and I could not bear looking at her in that stage.

Her conditions goes up and down and I was so afraid to face each sessions with the Doctors.  I resorted to spiritual help for her and have gone into vows with Guan Yin , free live fishes and chanting to boost the spiritual health of my sister.  It is very expensive but money is not an issue but to help her to fight for her life is my top priority now. 

It happens so fast .. I was talking happily with her and the next moment, she fell when I just left for home two Saturdays ago. So fragile and certain .  Absolutely , I was not prepared for this happening. I struggled with my sadness, my emotions and my hurt but finally, I have to wake up and face the reality.. the reality of her in a coma stage.

I have came to know what is impermanence and nothingness in Buddhism.  In the common world, all of us believe that things will remained forever . For example , we sit in the same chair everyday and one day , the day broke and we fell down.  We will ask God why does this happen ?  Everything is undergoing changes and we did not notice or aware of it, until it finally broke.  All things are  undergoing changes and one day it will break and wither away. We are just blink to this fact. This also applies to human beings.

I am still in the grey area and struggling and please pray with me tor the LORD to give her a chance to revive herself.

Namaste.

Sunday, January 15, 2017

Late life crisis

Late life crisis

There is a term called mono pause for ladies and it is also true for the male . This involves a bodily and mental changes and it starts from different stages in the life of individuals i.e. Different age. Some earlier and some later . For the female, they will stop their monthly "period" and the male will also suffer a lost of sperm counts and some activities . This is a second phase of life for each person .

However , there could be a second late life crisis. The choice of what to do after retirement for both sexes if there is a choice. Do they want to work until they die or work until disable or to shift their focus to enjoy their life to carry out their passions which is optional as well.

These both crisis are real for both sexes if they are lucky to live to a ripe old age or live last both stations or the live crisis.

It is really a dilemma and one one is absolutely right or there is no right answers . There could be regrets or no regrets , it depends on a particular person. Many of my friends have retired and I have not discuss this matter with them and so some looks happy and some still struggling to find a direction or a way to live their life.

Whatever, a decision or no decision is still a decision to choose the way we live . We can hide ourselves and with regrets and no regrets is ours to live .

Namaste

Saturday, January 14, 2017

Fragility of life

Fragility of life

Life is unpredictable while death is certain. This phrase have remained in my mind all this time since this catch phrase was known to me . One day , you could be standing strong and the next day you could be gone . A simple twist of fate could changed everything you have or the way you live.

Yes. I have telling myself and all other people that whatever status and power we have in life goes with the title we hold . If the title is taken away , the power and status also goes with it . It is fragile as that and we have to be aware of this happening including our wealth and possessions .

For thousands of years , religion have been preaching these type of philosophy but the greed of mankind is stronger and evil still prevail and in some area much stronger . So that is why there is so much sufferings and abuses .

Our ego self is bigger than us instead of we should be bigger than ourself. So what is the meaning of a bigger self ? A bigger self is like having a bigger agenda than our own individual agenda. It is to believe is a bigger love i.e. love humanity instead of love for ourself . Our needs are very selfish and narrow which the love for the universe and the love of mankind is so much bigger. An example is that instead of working  for a salary to make our life better , we can provide a free service to the world or mankind  and make earth and its people a better place to stay. This is for a bigger agenda and a bigger love.

However , it is very difficult to breakout from ourself as greed and ego confine us to our selfish needs . The instinct to compare and follow what others have or do to be successful in this materialistic works wonders to satisfy this needs .

We have to be aware and thrust out of this compelling shell and to realize a bigger self.

Namaste

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Dance in the rain

I have always advise people to learn to dance in the rain. Not very body can do it and only those with trained mind can do it.  Human beings are emotional beings and emotions controls most of their re-actions.  When something happen to you,  your mind is disturbed and your emotions come in to disturbed you more.  Sometimes, you run out of control.

After your re-action , you calm down and think whether your re-action is actually appropriate or not. If you have been too hush, then you regret your actions and wanted to be better. But, there is saying " whatever comes out of your mouth , it will bear some consequences.  Four quick horses will not be able to catch it. This really means that the damage have been done and you cannot unwound the time or repair the hurt. 

People often " run fire" and go into uncontrollable rage.  How can be calm  when some event happen ?

One way to go for a good show and come out a fresh  person as the rage is exterminated while your mind concentrate on something else.  Take your mind focus into another area or into another mode.

Listen to music also have the same impact while physical release like running or marathon is another way to burn up your energy and exhaust your mind.  The basic thing to do : Is to take your mind of the thing in focus  and live freely.

Dance in the rain is a song  and in real life , it hopes to act for

Monday, January 9, 2017

why I care ?

My body is undergoing changes  and most of it is aging. The dental health, the blood sugar and the bouncy leg work ,etc.   In all aspect , it is aging and de-generating.  Why I should care ?  To live a healthy and good life.

Nobody can avoid aging but we can delay aging.  By eating well and living well, we are able to remain active and still doing most of the things we can do when we are young despite the ability to do the full round become less and less. Everything will finally go.

I have seen the older generation walk with a limp or drive exceptionally slow or moving around in pain.  I will try to avoid most of it and keep my body straight and my head held high as much as possible.  I am fighting against nature and if I leave it to nature, I will be aging faster and be slower faster.  That is why I care . 

The numerous supplements I am taking is to delay degeneration.  For the sex drive , I have not taken the blue pills despite it is going down hill. But, sex health is also very important as it gives vitality to the body and energy to the spirit.  It is also a matter of pride or self ego. How can I tell people that it takes a lot of motivation to pull it up and standing ? Haiyooo, malu lah.

Nevertheless,  we hold our balls and bear the pain when things in our body do work so well.   We have accept it gracefully and acknowledge the failures in our body.   It is only natural.

Why I care ?  for my own price and ego..

Time to let go.

Namaste.

Sunday, January 8, 2017

Karma of today and tomorrow

What more can you get Karma of today. & tomorrow

My daughter May finds it hard to persuade her mum for a new Chinese new dress. She came to me asked for my help . She told she failed to convince her mum and that is it . She hopes I can do it for her .

Some people is feeling it so difficult to give and I think they are not aware of the tomorrows.
Now they are able and they think they will not age and become disable in the future .
They feel that they can be alone and will live well by themselves .Yes, maybe they can and I wished that they can live and die by themselves . Anyway, we come from nothing and we go with nothing . Fair .

But what is wrong , with giving back to the youngsters what we have earned ? Isn't it better that we give, shared and enjoy the things we have . They will feel we can give and they will appreciate the thoughts , the care and the Sharing .if they do not , then let it be. Maybe we have not give enough and they have not felt it.

This is not a formula of how much we give and how much they need to give back. No equations . It maybe nothing in return. So expect nothing and don't get yourself hurt. But just enjoy the process of giving .

Life is short and do not do foolish things as time will come back for no one . Enjoy the moment , forget the past and welcome the future .

Namaste

Thursday, January 5, 2017

Message from the Lord

I have been feeling kind of funny as this thought keep circulating in my mind and prompted me to write about this wisdom .

Bodhi tree is not a tree
Mirror images  are not real
Basically, we are nothing
So, how can we attract dust and sadness.

This wisdom came from a Buddhist wisdom .  It means Bodhi tree is not a tree because Bodhi tree does not grow from a seed originally. So not a natural tree.  Mirror images are not real depicts illusions or fakeness . What we see is not real but only images around us. Basically, we are nothing means impermanence.  We are only in transit and ashes to ashes , dust to dust and our whole body is nothing but water and dust. After we died, we are gone and does not exist.   In the case , why are we suffering sadness ?  If nothing , we cannot hold anything for feel anything. 

So, the whole problem is our mind.  If we control our mind, we control ourselves and we will be happy always. Be aware of this monkey mind , train it and make it work for us.

Namaste.