It has been raining

It has been raining For past week, it has been raining either in morning ,in the evening or for the whole day. The sky has been gloomy , dark or greyish and it stirs our thoughts especially when we are driving or caught in a jam. The thoughts just came and dwell in our mind for some time before they leave you. Many memories come and go but during one morning while driving on the Penang bridge, the thought of life and death swell up in my mind. There was less traffic on the bridge and driving was very smooth and the thought just came. Life is like passing through the bridge from one end to the next. That was a journey point to point and reaching my office is the start off  of another life. Isn't it the same for you? Each journey, each day or a period of time , a life itself in the micro? It can end anytime , so we better be aware if it. Life is fragile and impermanence , yet we attach so much of our time to gather wealth or to gain fame.  We must be mad not to realize this point and start enjoying what we have. It would never be enough if we let our greed go free.  So, we better wake up and live and breath a new bout of fresh air to live differently and meaningfully. Namaste.

Brownie was naughty tonight

Tonite -，Brownie was naughty. I do not know why my dog, Brownie was not obedient tonight.  Usually, she will follow my instructions to return to her cage after I have left her out for a while to exercise her legs. During that time , I talk to her and ask her to obey my " sit" instructions at the same place every night. She has been very obedient. But , not tonight. My maid tried to  chase her into her cage but she was very playful and do a hide and seek game with her. She gave up after several attempt and she yelled for my help. When I called up to Brownie and if I point to the cage , she will run in by herself but tonight she was rebellious and continued her hide and seek routine with me.  I was very surprise and angry.  I took up a stick and smack her on her butt. The first hit was light but she keep wanting to break away and I gave another smack . She yelled in pain but still refusing to go into her cage. My maid have to keep pushing her into her cage and finally she went it. I was remorseful as I verbally keep lecturing Brownie for not following my instructions. She keep staring at me and this is her usual re-actions  when I scold her. After several verbal scolding which I don't know whether she  understand me or not, I start to gave her a pat on her cheek and I scroll my hands on her cheek and appraise her been a good listener. She waggle her tail as if she was please. I don't know whether the stick and the carrot treatment will work or not but I hope she will be obedient as time goes by. Namaste.

Sick to my stomach

Lately ,the things which have been happening really make sick to my stomach.. The US Government shutdown, the wild wild west issue, the heaven and God issue,the MCA mockery that you step down and I will step down dance routine, etc. What is happening to us all ? So much negativity and controversial matters bring our peace life to disruption and havoc. Why can't it be like before ? Peaceful and calm and everyone can get to live the life they want. All these happenings are due to politics and self interest. Can everyone come to their senses and keep politics out of our life ? There are so many crowns around and pretending to be God and decide things their own way. Yes, we can keep our head in the sand and live a happy life but there are so much unfairness previaling which creates a lot of disturbances. My friend and colleagues told me that he is not reading the newspaper anymore to avoid getting angry at what is happening. Maybe, this is one of the good way to live a happier life. Then someone called me to voice out on the TPPA issue which if our Country were to get out, it will be disastrous to all of us doing business. I know I write some comments on the topic that evil will get stronger if Goodness choose to nothing. But, how can one voice matters ? It has to depend on the people in position to do it and ratify the shortcomings instead of protecting their self interst. What can I do but only to carry the sickness in my stomach and if I want to puke, I will go to the toilet. What the hell is happening to the world. GOD save us all !!! Namaste.

Dinner at Yeng Keng , Penang

Family dinner at Yeng Keng restaurant, Penang Last night, I had a dinner with my family, my BIL and his girlfriend and my daughter's friend , E.  it is a Hainan Cafe and restaurant serving their clannish  dishes. My wife ordered two spring rolls, a " arh orh" - duck soup, a ikan Tumis , a mixed vegetable , belachan chicken and finished with a wet and dry " Sar hor Fun". The taste was averagely good but the duck soup was too heavy with herbs.  It cost about RM240 for six person.. During the dinner, we notice a lot of people eating the  crispy egg white pudding which is like a big snow hill hold together with egg white burned by a gas burner. It was really a sight to watch. Most of our topics were about catching up with what happen what in our life and what we doing to do. These were very personal topics. But a casual stroll through the heritage hotel was a wonderful experience despite my third experience there at the site. So much memories and history and so many people have passed by the place and many have died or have reborn. Namaste.

Darkness at the expense of light

"Evil triumph ,when the good do nothing" The society have gone back to the wild wild west age, when have gone will travel and the fierce stamp over the weak and darkness pushed back the light. This will also happen when everyone only care for themselves. The recent shoot to kill or the logic of shoot first and ask later open us all to the fear of  kill or be killed scenario.  It is very frightening as it draw on us the existence of the wild wild west thinking. This lawlessness feeling is making us jittery and fearful.  This is what happen in the US where license guns are available in order to protect one's self. Are we going into that direction?  We must not encourage or cultivate this culture. If we promote the thinking of " killed or to be killed" , it will plead to dooms day. Everybody when confronted will attempt to kill first and ask later. When the darkness starts to get stronger , the goodness should re-act with same or  stronger intensity to  balance the darkness. Otherwise, havoc and evil will prevail. Evil is like lawlessness, stupidity and arrogance。There is always an agenda to promote once interest and in the process, the evil tail is expose and there is a sign for the good to re-act. The evil exist in everywhere . In a nation, in a community , in a home or in a company. Namaste.

Happiness & saddness - or perfect gray.

When there is happiness ,there is also saddness. Just like black and white but the middle is gray. Gray is the middle path ie no happiness and no saddness. I heard Ajahn Brahm said that life is fill with happiness and saddness in alternate intervals. Each feeling is between two points and the interval varies. Some times happiness last longer , some shorter and vice versa with saddness. So, if you feel saddness, it is only within two points. The length of the two points depends on you. How do you train yourself to get out of this circle ? Alternating between Happiness and Saddness is very frustrating and annoying. If you experience a high level of happinesss, then you will experience a very high level of saddness. The range fluctuate with the height of each experience. If you keep your re-action of happiness in a very low range, then you will be able to restrict the level of saddness. The up and down range fluctuate in equal length. If you train yourself to be aware of the emotions and not to re-act to it, then you have reached the Gray line , ie the middle path which is neither white or black or happy or sad. In this level, you have each the perfect level and you will find eternal peace and calm. You can achieved this level, if you train your mind to be aware and not to re-act. Namaste.

The fear in us.

The fear in us. In  our life, there are so much fear. The fear of dying, the fear of losing our job, our fear of being lonely, etc. There are thousand and one fears. We suppressed our thoughts , our actions , our ambition, etc and suffered in silence because of these fear. Really. Why do we behave in these manner? Why can't we express ourself and break free from these fears. Why can't we speak our mind and to say "no".  We become "yes men" out of these fear.  We are trap  in these fear and live our life around it.  We can disagree to agree and still keep the relationship in our life. When we subdue to fear , the fear inside us gets stronger and take control of us. If we fear someone, that someone  takes control of us and abuse us.  Just like the saying " the devil gets stronger when the goodness  become more compassionate". Live wisely and without fear. Face fear squarely and the fear will  diminish at each confrontation. Look at it and into it and remained aware of its existence  and the fear will fade away. Namaste.